GLAMOROUS SKY

Chapter.12 - Drifting away

12. - Drifting away -

Jindo had allready started drifting away from me, the soon I had reunited with Ri-seung. As painfull as that was, I did not accept it untill many years later. In other words, it was my fault. And I hope she will forgive me for that one day, even if we'll never meet again. Even though Jindo, as every other girl must have started to feel lonely, after breaking up with her boyfriend, I let my own selfishness stand in the way of that again. The only thing that stood on my mind, when I lost her, was the fact that Trapnest was taking everything I loved away.

I will always remember how hopefull, Jindo was. No matter how much shitt she resieved from life itself, she still crawled back up on her feets, she was a true fighter. I admire her for that. The day she met Tae-min again, was on the day BlackStones signed the contract with Gaia entertainment, one of the biggies. I was so caught up with my own stuff, about my stupid plan to compete with my boyfriends band, that I had not even left a single thought about her that day.

Jindo was on her way home of work, where she like usuall walked alone trough the busy and fashionable streets of Seoul. Wandering around like a lost puppy, looking trough shop windows at things she could not afford. Dreaming about getting a better jobb, remembering how she used to dream about a future with Hyuk-ji. Just then her phone started ringing in her purse, and she hopefully unlocked the screen only to see it being an uknown number.

- Yeoboseyo, it's Kim Ji-na, she insecurely answered. She proceeded to drop the phone when she heard a familiar voice, a famous one. Of the famous playboy guirtarist  of Trapnest, Shin Tae-min. She was happy he had called her, of cource, as she had always been a big fan. But still, she knew the loneliness that hurted in her heart, could never be satisfyed by a meeting like this. She knew that all along, and would not let her expectations hurt her so much again.

- Ji-na, he said with his husky cold voice, making her wonder if it was me that stood behind this. Wanting to reward her somehow, by making him call her. Sadly, that was not the case. -.. Yes?, she whispered, not knowing what to do. - Look behind you, he said and she turned around seeing him stand like some arch angel, in between people walking like ants in every direction around him. Some stopped of cource, realising who he was.

He smirked, seeing how startled she was. Then walked towards her, surprising her with a friendly hugg. - Long time no see, he smiled. And then he took her to a nice restaurant. Poor Jindo, must have realy struggled keeping her expectations low & under controll this time, feeling awkwardly silent and unthankfull. This was not the way it was supposed to be, she reminded herself under the dinner. It would never work that way.

- Next time, Tae-min said, - I would love to eat some of your homemade food, she hurried nodding, having avoided his eye contact under the whole dinner. All night he was talking about things, wich felt like just lines of a dream the next day, claiming that she was the only woman he had met who completely understood him, that he just could not keep himself away from her. That night, Jindo stayed at a luxurious high-priced hotel with him, only to wake up the next day alone to a note left by him. Telling her they would for sure meet again, after Trapnest had finished their world tour.

Jindo wanted to call me, after what seems like hours of being alone. Crying something, while whispering,- ..thank you. Trough this period, it was easy to say she was having a hard time, Tae-min did not call or text her at all, and did not even answer her own texts. That fucking bastard was breaking her heart he had taken the claim of, and I stood there helplessly wishing it would soon be all over and forgotten.

Ri-seung had of cource also gone for the tour, but I was fine with us having a break. I was busy with my own band anyway, and every night we would all hang out in our apartment, trying our best to cheer our Jindo up. Me, Woo-hyun and Shi-chan. There was an evening I would never forgett, when we all went out sending up colourfull fireworks at the sky. Everyone just as exited as a child on christmas day, it seemed like no troubles existed in the whole world. All that was, was our smiles, our friendship and the colourfull skies.

It was about that time, that I discovered something I would take great adventage of. Woo-hyun, he was obviousily hopefully crushing at Jindo. And I dont think she even noticed, wich was when I took my chance. She was heartbroken and lonely, and needed something else to think about. It was perfect! I tried my best to secretly push them together, making them think it was something that had just happend by itself. I feel so selfish now, as truth was I only did this for my own.

My fear of being left alone again, was what drove me. Disguising my intentions as helping poor Jindo, I tried my best to fight against Trapnest. Back then, I just thought to myself

.. how wrong could it be?