Dear Aja,
I read your book, "To Me and You." I remember reading the letter you gave me, Alexandria, and I cried. I reread it, and im proud to say I am not crying. I reread the whole book actually. Your advice to your future self is so amazing.
I always have wondered how you are able to help me and help yourself at the same time. And I realize thats not the case. Im just a selfish brat, who never gives you time for yourself. Ive always told myself that if someone tells me, "im fine," or "im just tired," I would investigate further, because I know those can be lies. I learned how to become amazing at reading people's emotions.
This leads to me saying, im a fool. I didn't notice when my best friend was sad, or needed me to be the therapist. I feel like I pushed you away because of that.
Im learning, slowly, that I need breaks, and that I'm human. And it's also teaching me im not the only human, and you beed breaks as well. So, if you ever need to talk im here.
Anyways, I also wanna say Thank You. For waking up for me at 3 am, to comfort me. I am learning to not be clingy, because your moving eventually. So yeah, im going to try and be better about that.
Thats something im working on now, but in the last ive become better at so many things because of you. You pushed me in choir, you convinced me not to quit band.
You say I helped you be more social, but you did the same for me. I am more less 'emotionless' now. And thats growth. It means im healing.
Our hour longs calls worked. It's been quite a while since ive had a full blown breakdown. So, I guess I dont need a therapist anymore? I wanna focus on you. So now im your therapist. And that leaves you...
Fired.
K, love you. Also when you move we have to facetime like the time.
{•Sincerely•}
{•The Fool•}
