So, I've always been a good kid. Elementary school, straight A's (expect kindergarten, but that's a story for another time) I have always been smart, and good at a lot of things I do. But all that, comes with cons.
Everyone expects me to get good grades, and be a leader and blah blah blah. But it's frustrating, cause I have my english teacher telling me that she expects straight A's, my father expecting it, my History teacher wanting me to be a better example. My band teacher wanting me to stop stressing and chill. Njhs and student Council (maybe) looking down my shoulder for good grades. Then Sports, always there.
It's like, why did I decide to be a good kid. Oh! My friend reminded me colleges will start breathing down my neck about grades. :(
It's just a lot of pressure, and I'm not sure how to handle it.
And that's just for school. My home life is stressful too. Doing homework, court with my mom, and just everything in general. And my anxiety doesnt help at all. Like today I had a few people tell me they expected better, and then my friends wouldnt respond for 2 hours. Usually they respond fast, and it was only 2 hours, but my anxiety went flying.
"Did I disappoint them too?"
"Am I not good enough?"
"Am I that easy to get rid of?"
Anyways, this was kinda long, but I felt annoying venting to anyone else.
