Lost [JENLISA]

Chapter 1

Lisa's POV

"LALISA PRANPRIYA MANOBAN YOU BETTER WAKE YOUR ASS UP
BEFORE I SHAVE LEO'S FUR OFF!!!"
Jisoo unnie screams behind my door. "ALRIGHT I'M AWAKE!" I yelled back. I sat up and looked at the digital clock on my bedside table it said 8:30 AM.

I slowly got up and made my way to the kitchen. I saw Chaeyoung and Jennie sitting and eating together at the dining table, while Jisoo unnie was cooking. "Come here and eat Lisa." Chaeyoung said while motioning her head for me to sit down next to her and Jennie.

"No, I'm good." I reply. I'm not that hungry and also I didn't want to sit with Jennie. I make my way to the bathroom that was in between Jennie's room and my room. I took a 15 minute shower and went back to my room.

I picked out my clothes for the day. I wore a pink oversized hoodie, underneath was a simple white shirt. I put on a pair of skinny blue jeans and I wore my adidas superstar shoes.

I sat on my bed, deep in thought. I didn't notice Jennie calling my name. "Lisa are you sure you don't want to want to eat?" She asked with a look of concern on her face. "No." I said with a cold tone. "Oh okay." She replied looking kind of hurt.

I'm sorry Jen. I'm trying to move on. One day you're clingy and sweet and the next you're cold and distant, but now you're dating Kai. Even though it hurts to see you be with him. I can't tell you to stop loving who you want to love.

She made her way out of my room and as soon as she did my phone started ringing. It was the CEO of YG Entertainment. I picked up the call. "Lisa I need you to come to my office, it is of important matters." Then he dropped the call. Rude. I knew my manager was going to pick me up and take me to the CEO's office. So I waited in my room.

"LISA!!" I hear Chaeyoung yell. "YEAH!!" I yell back. "MANAGER OPPA IS WAITING FOR YOU OUTSIDE!!" I pull down my sleeve so no one could see my newly formed cuts and my old scars. "OK!" I reply.

My co-members didn't know much about my past. Of course they knew about my cuts, but they didn't know that I started again. They knew the basic stuff about me. Like where I was born and raised, what school I went to, my favorite color and foods, and my birthday. Stuff like that.

I make my way out our dorm and got in my manager's car. "Hi Lisa." He said. "Hi oppa, do you know what the CEO wants me for?" I asked, with a worried look on my face. "No, I'm sorry." He said. "Oh, that's ok. I guess I'll find out when I get there."

I got out of the car and said bye to my manager. I make my way up to the 5th floor. This was where the CEO's office was. I knocked on the door. "You may come in." Hearing what he said I opened the door. "Hello sir." I said. "Good morning Lisa. You can take a seat right there." Motioning for me to sit on the couch that faced him.

As soon as I sat down he asked me "Lisa, has your mother told you?" I raise my eyebrow up in confusion. "Tell me what sir?" He sighed. "So she hasn't told you yet. Well, Lisa your dad is Marco Bruschweiler?"He asked. "Yeah, he's my stepdad." He sighed again before continuing "He died in a car accident here in Seoul. Your mother is staying near here in a hotel. I was told that his funeral would be tomorrow at 3 PM."

Don't cry Lisa, don't cry. Stay strong. "Thank you for notifying me sir." He nodded his head. " You are dismissed." He said. I made my way out. My manager said he would wait for me outside. When I made it back to the car he asked me "How was it?" It was such a simple question but there was so many ways to answer it.

"It was good. He just complimented me about how hardworking our group is." I reply. I know that it was a lie, but I don't want him to worry about me.

It was quiet for the rest of the ride. I kept wondering why my mom didn't tell me yet. Maybe she didn't want me to worry either, but how did the CEO know.

We finally made it back to the dormitory. I bid my manager goodbye again. I walked as slowly as possible, wanting to avoid Jennie as much as I could. As I walk back my phone started ringing. It was my mom this time. "Lisa, your da-." I cut her off. "I know, the CEO told me and how does he know before me?" I asked her with curiosity. "I told him before I told you."
Oh so that's how he knows. I heard her sniffle a little. She's been crying. "I didn't want you to worry because I know how busy you are." I knew it, she didn't want me to worry. "So, how are you and Jennie?" Fuck, what am I supposed to tell her. "Me and Jennie?" I asked. "Yes you and Jennie." She said.  I decided to tell her half the truth.

"Me and Jennie are just good friends. She's dating that member from EXO. His name is Kai." Just good friends, I don't want to be just good friends. I want something more, something that will never happen.

"Oh, that's too bad. What was that word you young ones use today? Was it ship or boat or something like that? Wait, it was ship. I ship you two." I blushed at the thought of my mom shipping us together. "Sorry mom we are just good friends." I said again. "Well, anyway are you going to tell your co-members?" She asked "No. I don't want to worry or stress them about me." I reply. "But they can help you, you know that right?" She said. "I know mom but they are already stressed about our comeback in April." I said with a sigh. "Ok, but you better not be drinking." She said. "Ok, as long as you don't drink either." That was a lie, I was going to drink anyway. I knew when I get back to the dorm, I was going to have to try to act normal.

I hear my stomach growl. Great, now I'm hungry, I finally made it back to the dormitory. When I made it to the kitchen. I looked through the cupboards and pantry to find some instant noodles. When I finally did, I read the instructions, even though I have done this a million times. There was still a possibility I could burn the dorm down.

I sat down and started eating. I looked at my phone it was 10:37 AM. I heard footsteps behind me. I turned around, it was Chaeyoung. Time to act normal. "Hey Lisa, I'm hungry do you know where Jisoo unnie is?" She asked. "You're hungry? But you want to find Jisoo unnie? Are you going to eat her?" I asked. "NOO LALISA YOU IDIOT I NEED TO FIND JISOO UNNIE BECAUSE I WAS GONNA ASK HER TO COME TO THE STORE WITH ME TO BUY FOOD!!!!!" I chuckle, knowing that I made her mad. Her cheeks were a bright red. I decided to tease her more. "Are you blushing? Do you like Jisoo unnie?" I asked. "I uh no, no of course not." She stuttered nervously. "Sure." I said not believing her answer.

"Whatever, I'm gonna find Jisoo unnie." She said. Hopefully Jennie comes with them, or that she isn't here.

I went back to my room and locked the door behind me. Now all I have to do is wait. Wait for them to leave. I have a mini fridge in my room, where I kept my beverages. I heard Chaeyoung scream "JENNIE UNNIE AND LISA DO YOU WANT TO COME TO THE STORE WITH ME AND JISOO UNNIE!!" Then Jennie screamed back "YEAH I NEED TO BUY A BUCKET OF MILK FLAVORED ICE CREAM!! Then Chaeyoung screamed again "OK, WHAT ABOUT YOU LISA?" I kept quiet. Then it was Jisoo unnie who screamed "MAYBE SHE'S ASLEEP!!"

As soon as I heard them exit out the dorm, I make my way out my room to check that they aren't actually there anymore. After I find that no one is here except me. I went back to my room and locked the door. I look at the time 10:55 AM.

Knowing them they were probably going to take a long time at the store. Jennie was going say that she wanted to try everything. Jisoo unnie would try to find as much chicken as possible and Chaeyoung would try to buy the whole store.

I go to my mini fridge and take out a bottle of vodka. I open it, taking a small sip. The alcohol seared my throat. I felt a tear come down my cheek. Lisa, you dumbass, you said you wouldn't cry. Fuck it, I don't have any schedule for today or in the next four days. I took a long swig of the liquid. I'm going to drink until I can't feel the pain.

Here I am lost. I don't know where to go. No one will be my map. No one will be my light in the darkness.