Lost [JENLISA]

Chapter 9

Lisa POV

I walk through a empty dark hallway. I walked until I hear screams. I'm stuck here again. Always replaying in my mind. A 7 year old me who was on the floor, bleeding and was watching my mom being raped. My real dad was an alcoholic. My mom had enough of his bullshit so she kicked him out. One night he came back really drunk. She tried to keep him out but he overpowered her.

He knocked my mom out cold. Then he went over to me and kicked me in the head. He slapped me over and over. He didn't stop until my mom got back up and slapped him back.

He punched her in the face, which made her fall to the floor. I was screaming in the background "PLEASE HELP MY MOMMY!" That was the only thing I could do. I was so helpless.

I watched him take his pants off.

I sat up in shock. Jennie was tapping my shoulder. "Move over." She said. "Never mind." Make up your mind lady. She removed the blanket and gets on top of me. She lays her head down on my chest and puts the blanket on top of us.

"Why are you here?" I asked. "Ok, if you don't want me here I can leave." She quickly got up, but I grab her hand before she could go. "No." I said. "Please stay here with me." She rolled her eyes and sat on the couch. I crawl over to her but she pushes me away. I sat close to her, staring at her intently.

Memorizing every inch of her face. Every detail was perfect. "What are you doing?" I flinched back. "Nothing." I answer.

I yawned and lay back down. I look at Jennie she was crying. "What's wrong?" I ask. "I woke up today and didn't find you by my side." So that's why she's been mad at me. We're not even dating. "I'm sorry."

She lays down next to me and wiped her tears away. She turns around so her back is facing me. I wrap my arms around her waist and bury my face into her nape.

"How are you and Kai doing?" I ask. "We broke up." She replies. "And it was just media play. I agreed to it because I thought it would help me make a certain person jealous. It didn't work or at least I didn't think it worked."

"You didn't hurt Kai's feelings right?" I may be envious of him but being dumped because your plan didn't work. That's just mean. "No, we're friends and he agreed because he wanted Kyungsoo to be jealous. It worked for him." She said.

I felt tears form in my eyes. Jennie likes someone. I hugged her tighter. Who knows if this is the last time I get to.

"Lisa?"

"Yeah."

"What happened earlier when I woke you up?" She asked. "What do you mean?" Was she referring to my nightmare? "I think you were having a nightmare?" She sounded unsure. Should I tell her? What if she judges me? What if she thinks less of me?

"I was." I said. "What were you dreaming about?" Just tell her Lisa. What's the worst that could happen. Telling her that your mother got raped it's no big deal. It's easy. No pressure. "When I was younger. My real dad raped my mom. I had to witness it and it replays in my mind every night over and over again."

It's hell. It's better to get drunk so I don't have to see it. "How come you never told us?" She asked. "Because." I said. "Because you didn't want to be judged?"

"Yeah and I didn't want you guys to look at me with pity. I hate it when people look at me that way. As if I'm weak. When I was in school people would always talk about me. Not to my face, but behind my back. I would still hear it though. Stuff like "That's the girl who had to move in with her
grandma after her mom had to be sent to a rehab center on the other side of the world because she was raped." Or "Poor girl she must be so traumatized and depressed." Then after 2 months of staying with my grandma, her body was found in the street. Stabbed multiple times. They beat her up so much, that her face was unrecognizable at the funeral. My mom came back 2 years later and we became close again and she met Marco my stepdad." I said.

Wow. That felt good to finally say it out loud. Not much of a burden anymore. "Lisa, you should have just told us. It would've been easier and Jisoo unnie always thought you were hiding something." She said.

"Yeah I guess, let's just go to sleep now. We're going to start our tour in a few days." I closed my eyes knowing that I would probably get another nightmare, but it didn't matter as long as I fall asleep with her in my arms.