Shut up and Listen

Your Outsider

Dear My Two Friends,

I can't imagine living

Without you two in my life.

But right now, all I feel

Is like I'm the outsider.

If you make plans,

I thought you'd at least ask me.

Instead of expecting someone

Else to tell me.

Both of you are capable of

Sending a text.

This isn't the first time which

Is why I'm so bothered

By being left behind.

Nope.

It's happened over five times.

I tried to tell you how much

I hate that you two do this

But I guess you didn't understand.

What can I possibly tell you?

One of you can't handle stress.

The other can't handle feeling frustration.

I won't come out about my pain.

Yes.

Pain.

I feel pain every time

You leave me out and I'm so done

With coping with that pain.

I don't deserve to be forgotten.

I don't deserve to be the third wheel.

I don't deserve this.

But I got it anyway.

So this is me dealing with it.

Holding it in as the words typed with emotion show up and prove to me that maybe this is stupid. Maybe this is pathetic. Maybe you don't realize it. But I have every right to feel hurt and left out. I deal with it by shutting my thoughts up and not letting you know but there comes a time when I can't be quiet anymore. "So this is my letter."

Sincerely,

Your Outsider.