Roommates

Movies.

It's been a few weeks since Ray and me got together.  Since my mom died.  I still think about her a lot but I mean, she's my mom.  Ray has fell in love with me.  If he's not talking to me he's taking about me.  It gets annoying sometimes to be honest.  I'm pretty sure Frank and Gerard are too in love with each other to be caring about Ray loving me.  He kissed me on the lips a few times.  The first time surprised me.  I was in my room, reading my book when he sat down on my bed.  Next thing I knew, his and my lips were touching for a long while.  The second time was in front of everyone.  Frank was freaking out, Gerard was clapping, I don't know why, and Mikey watched with a look of disappointment on his face.  I also figured out that Mikey liked me.  Gerard told me one day when Mikey and Ray were out some where.  It shocked me but it also made me happy because I sort of like him too.  I refused to believe that I liked him back at first but then the more I paid attention to him and less attention to Ray, I realized it was true that I liked him back.  I still stayed with Ray though.  I didn't want to hurt his feelings.  He was always so happy when he was around me.  Hugging me, kissing me, trying to cuddle me.  I let him cuddle me once but it didn't feel right so I haven't cuddled with him since. 

Me and the boys decided that we would go to the movies today.  They were all excited.  Me and Mikey were neutral.  We left, got to the movies, bought snacks, and finally sat down.  Gerard was at the end, Frank was beside him, then Ray, me, and Mikey.  We sat at the very top.  "What movie are we watching?" I whispered to Mikey.  "The Nun." He whispered back.  "It's a horror movie." He said.  "Oh." I nodded.  The movie ads played, they told us to silence our phones and we did so.  The movie started.  It didn't seem scary.  Me and Ray were going to share popcorn but he surprisingly didn't want any so me and Mikey shared.  There some parts that made me jump but not too badly.  So far it wasn't all that scary to me.  That was until I had a massive jump scare.  I jumped so badly that I nocked the popcorn over on Mikey's lap.  "Oh fuck, I'm so sorry!" I whispered, picking popcorn off of his lap.  He didn't move or say anything, he just sat still and watched me.  I mad the dumb mistake and started scooping the popcorn off of his lap.  I didn't realize what I was doing was wrong until I felt his boner.  "Shit." I whispered to myself.  I brushed the rest of the popcorn off of him and acted like nothing had just happened.  Like I didn't just feel his boner.  Wait.  I technically just touched his dick.  My mind started going crazy.  I have a boyfriend and I just touched another man's dick.  I haven't even touched Ray's!  I don't think Ray has ever gotten a boner around me.  If he has, I've never noticed.  I wasn't paying attention to anything besides the fact that I just touched Mikey's dick, until I felt a hand on my right thigh.  I shook my head slightly and looked down at my thigh.  It was obviously Mikey's hand.  I looked over at him with wide eyes.  He just smirked.  It was hot.  That wasn't okay.  I didn't do anything about his hand.  I let him keep it there.  Occasionally he would slightly move it upwards.  He was so close to having his hand on my vagina.  I jumped again and he moved his hand up to my front.  I breathed out a shaky breath.  Ray looked over at me.  I threw my hands into my lap, covering Mikey's hand.  "You okay?" Ray asked.  "Yeah.  It just a little scary." I nervously laughed.  He smiled and turned his attention back to the movie.  I didn't move my hands for a while.  Mikey pressed his hand against me making me bite down on my lip.  He slowly moved it in circles.  I was fighting the urge to throw my head back and moan.  I moved my hands away from my lap and Mikey started using his fingers.  He found my clit through the thin fabric of my pants and underwear.  He put pressure on it.  I couldn't help but throw my head back a little.  Ray glanced over at me.  I looked at him and smiled.  He looked at me weirdly but smiled back.  When Ray looked away I snapped my head to Mikey.  "Fuck you." I whispered.  He looked over at me and smiled, making me feel weak.  He circled my clit with his fingers.  I bit down harder on my lip.  He put more pressure on my clit and my mouth flew open.  Ray looked over at me, furrowing his eyebrows.  I quickly shut my mouth but I realized Ray was looking me over.  It was took late to do anything about Mikey's hand because Ray had already saw it.  He looked at me with an angry yet sad look in his eyes.  I slightly opened my mouth but I didn't say anything.  He looked away from me and back to the screen in front of us.  Mikey was still moving his hand.  I didn't want him to stop but I had to stop him.  He looked at me with panic when he saw my face.  "I have to use the bathroom." I whispered walking out. 

I ran into the bathroom stall and sat down on the toilet.  "Fuck, fuck, fuck!" I said aloud.  "I'm fucking screwed." I sighed.  "Ray's probably going to think I've been cheating on him with Mikey and I won't be able to explain." I said to myself.  It's all Mikey's fault!  He didn't have to touch me.  Just because I was trying to be nice and help him get the popcorn off of me he didn't have to get a boner.  But he does like me.  What was I thinking?  And I touched him.  "Fuck." I said.  I liked it.  I liked Mikey touching me.  I liked that feeling of not wanting to get caught.  I loved the feeling of Mikey's fingers against my clit.  "Fuck!" I shouted.  I hit the wall with my beat up hand and immediately regretted it. 

I stayed in the bathroom until the movie ended.  I was too scared to go back.  I walked out fo the bathroom when I figured the boys would be out.  "God.  What were you doing in there?" Frank laughed.  I shook my head.  Ray wouldn't look at me.  Neither would Mikey.  I understood why.  As we were leaving Ray pulled me back.  He looked at me without saying anything.  I was panicking.  I hated to cry but I just couldn't help it.  Tears rolled down my cheeks.  I looked away from Ray.  "Why?" I heard him whisper.  "I-"   "I thought you loved me." He said.  "I do I just- I," I paused.  "I'm sorry." I whispered.  "Did you ever like me?" He asked.  "Yes, of course I liked you.  Just not the way you liked me." I ended with a whisper.  "Then why did you agree to date me?"   "I didn't want to hurt your feelings."   "And you thought that wouldn't hurt me?!" He asked, raising his voice.  I stepped back from him.  He looked at me with a scared expression on his face.  "I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you!" He said, tears daring to fall from his eyes.  "But, why?" He asked again.  "I- I spilled popcorn on Mikey's lap and I tried to get it off and accidentally touched his-"  Ray cut me off.  "Its fine. We're over with anyways." He shrugged.  He walked off.  I stood staring at the door to the theater.  I bit my lip and walked back to the apartment, as slow and I could.

I was very behind by the time we got to the apartment.  Ray went to his room and so did I.  Someone knocked at my door.  "Come in." I said quietly.  Mikey walked in.  I was happy to see him but I also wasn't so happy to see him.  "What?" I asked.  "I'm sorry." He said looking at his feet.  "Sorry about what?"   "You know, the movies.  Sorry that Ray broke up with you. It was my fault." He said.  I shook my head.  "No, it's really my fault.  I touched you first." I said.  "I-its both of our fault." Mikey whispered.  "Yeah. It is." I whispered back.  "Sorry for interrupting whatever you were doing. I'll go." Mikey said.  I didn't get to say anything before Mikey was out of my room. 

Well, I'm single again.