Doe Eyes

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Harry's PoV
,,I don't know what to do" harry whispered while burying his head in his hands
,,Harry do what Dr.Steffenson told you, Kate and i can visit her.. maybe she'll remember something" my brother put his arm around me trying to cheer me up
,,I'm so sorry harry" Kate mumbled stroking my arm
,,what if she won't remember the past or me" I whispered while a tear streamed down my cheek
,,She will remember everything harry, just give her some time.. she's been through so much" my brother said
,,Will what if she won't fall in love with me again?" i said and felt this pain in my chest again whenever I got a panic attack. I haven't gotten a panic attack for a few years, but since Meghan has been in hospital I've been worryingly too much and it started again. I didn't tell anyone.. because my therapist showed me techniques how I could handle them, it really helped me during the time my mum died.
,,Harry?" i heard my brother calling my name a few times
,,Sorry Did you say something?" I mumbled
,,Are you having panic attacks again?" he asked in a worried tone
I looked at him for a few seconds before he pulled me into a big hug
,,Harry it's going to be okay" he whispered, while all the emotions I tried holding in for the past three days, couldn't be held in anymore. All the tears, the pain, the anxiety.. everything.. I let it all out.
After a few hours of talking with will and Kate, I was making my way to the hospital again, this time with Archie.

,,Hey Arch" I smiled seeing my son in short dungarees and his soother
,,We're going to visit mummy today.. I know you missed her as much as I did Bubba" I kissed his cheek and held him softly as I went into meghans room
,,Hey you" I said while seeing my beautiful brunette
,,Oh my god you're adorable" she squealed while Archie was pointing at her
,,He missed you" i chuckled and carefully sat him down on meghans lap. The little boy immediately cuddled into his mother's chest and started blabbering something
,,Hey Bubba" she whispered and cuddled him tightly
,,I'm sorry that I couldn't remember you a few days ago" she whispered while holding the little boy
,,But having children was always one of my biggest wishes and you apparently made that come true" she kept on talking to Archie who didn't stop looking at his mother
,,He's so sweet" she said looking at the little boy
,,I told you he's a mummy's boy" I smiled softly
She looked at me for a few seconds before realising something was wrong
,,Harry are you okay?" she asked in a worried tone
,,Ehm yeah I'm just tired, couldn't sleep much" I stuttered nervous
,,Are you Sure?" she stroke my arm carefully while I felt the pain in my chest again

This fucking pain pops up in the wrong moments

,,Harry talk to me" she kept on stroking my arm while holding Archie with the other one
,,Meg- I'm- I" I couldn't form a proper sentence and my fast heartbeat seemed to take over my whole body
The brunette held my face softly and stroke my cheeks until I got focus of my surroundings again
,,You're having a panic attack, don't you" She asked cautious while holding my face softly
I didn't say anything, I just nodded and looked down
She pulled me into a hug which immediately had a calming effect on me
,,If you want to talk about it, I'm here" she whispered and stroke my back
,,Thank you" I smiled softly and rested my hand on her waist
We rested in that position for a while until Archie started whining
,,I think he's getting tired" I mumbled while the toddler held my hand
,,You guys can actually sleep here" she said softly
,,Are you okay with that? I don't want to-
,,Harry I would love to spend time with my family.. and maybe this will help me remember something" she started playing with her bracelet
,,Don't be nervous..  you're always playing with your bracelets when you are" I took her hand and started stroking it softly
,,It just feels weird.." she mumbled
,,what do you mean my love?" i whispered
,,My love?"  she looked at me with big eyes
,,I'm sorry, I always call you-
,,I know" she smiled softly
,,You also call me sweetheart" she had a cute smile on her face
,,You remembered it" I chuckled
,,Yes I did" she smiled softly
,,How about I quickly go home and pack a bag with Archie's and mine things, get some take-out and drive back.. in the meantime you can decide if you want to watch a movie" I said
,,That Sounds amazing, is it okay if Archie stays with me?" she asked while cuddling our son
,, Of course" I smiled brightly
,,I'll be back in 20 minutes" I kissed Archie's cheek and looked at Meghan for a while until I realised that she wasn't ready yet and pulled back

After I packed our bags and got some tacos I drove back to the hospital. When I entered the room I saw meghan playing with Archie, this made me remember how we played on the grounds of frogmore house only a week ago, when she still had her memories.
,,Hey" she smiled at me
,,Got your favorite tacos" I pointed at the box with the delicious food in it
,,Thank you" she smiled softly and patted at the space next to her on the bed
,,How was he?" I asked sitting down next to her
,,He was so calm and very cuddly" she chuckled going through the ginger hair of the little boy
,,We make pretty cute babies" she mumbled and looked at me
,,Well your good genes are coming through" I said softly making her smile
,,Did you decide on a movie?" I asked her
,,Yeah.. Archie helped me a bit" she smiled brightly
,,Let me guess.. the Lion King?" i chuckled and watched my two favorite human beings
,,How did you know?" she chuckled
,,It's my favorite movie and I made our boy watch that movie so many times, we actually watched that movie when we were in Botswana" I smiled softly remembering the time
,,In Botswana?" she looked at me with big eyes
,,That's one of my favorite places in this world.. we had our third date there and our honeymoon" I said while looking at her dreamy doe eyes
,,This sounds incredible" she whispered
,,It was amazing" I smiled softly while looking down at her bracelet which I got her from Botswana
,,I really want to remember harry.. I try so hard" she whispered while looking at me
,,Don't pressure yourself Meg, I don't care how long it will take I'll do everything to help you" I whispered and stroke her thigh
,,Come on let's eat something and watch a movie to lighten the mood" I smiled softly at her and took the tacos out.
While Archie was already asleep on meghans chest, harry lied down next to Meghan and put on the movie
In the middle of the movie the brunette got tired and leaned her head on Harry's shoulder
,,You okay?" he whispered
,,Yeah just tired" she mumbled as I put my arm around her and she got more comfortable
,,Did you already decide where you want to stay.. when you get out of the hospital" I mumbled while stroking her arm
,,You mean with my mum or with you two?" she turned to face me
I nodded nervous, while she smiled softly
,,You're so sweet" she chuckled and her cute dimples were showing
,,Why am I the sweet one?" i smiled looking at her
,,Because you've been so cautious with me the past few days and I can't imagine how hard this must be for you" she whispered while looking into my blue eyes
I really had to compose myself to not kiss her right now
,,At the end of the day I know that you're the only one I could ever imagine myself getting old with, that's why I'm waiting no matter how long" I said while looking at her soft doe eyes
,,Meg" I whispered while holding eye contact
,,Yeah?" she smiled looking at me
,,I know you don't remember but we had a fight before all of this happened.. I just wanted to say that I'm so sorry about everything" I felt tears form in my eyes, maybe it was the fact that my wife was laying right next to me but at the same time it felt like she was so far away.
,,Why did we fight?" She asked curious
,,I was an idiot" i simply replied making her laugh
We went on talking for a while until she fell asleep on my chest, just like old times.

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Will it be like the old times tho?👀