Not So Little Secrets

Chapter Six: Unclear About A lot

Brittany's POV:

Things with Santana and I have been going pretty good since our first time together. That was a bit over a month ago. The end of the school year is coming up in less than 2 months which means Santana will be graduating and headed off to college. We haven't really spoken about what we should do when that time comes but we'll figure something out. As I walk into the cafeteria I spot all my friends at the table and sit next to Kurt.

"Hey guys have any of you seen San?" I ask around the table.

"I think I saw her headed under the bleachers about 10mins ago." Said Tina.

"Thanks." I say as I get up and head to the bleachers.

"Hey" I say to a pacing Santana.

"Britt, hey, what are you doing here?"

"What do you mean? I've been looking for you, I wanted to talk to you." I say as I take a seat on the couch

"Oh about what?" She ask sitting next to me.

"Well first" I say leaning in to kiss her. I haven't seen her all day.

"Secondly, what were you in here pacing about?" I ask pulling away from the kiss.

"Just thinking about college and us" She says leaning into my side.

"So we are on the same page because that was what I wanted to talk to you about." I say wrapping my arm around her shoulder.

"Have you decided what colleges you are considering?"

"Yea, I've been considering UCLA, NYC, Louisville, Berklee College of Music in Boston. I already applied to all of them." She says standing up pacing again.

"San what's wrong? Did you get any acceptance letters back?" I ask trying to ignore the fact that all of those schools are far away.

"Yeah, I got accepted to all but I haven't made up my mind on which one I want to go to."

"Well dont sorry about it, you still got time to figure that out."

"But what does that mean for us?" She ask looking sad.

"San I want you to put yourself in the best possible position to achieve your goal. I dont want you to change your decisions based on our relationship. I mean do you want to do the long-distance thing or no? Regardless, I'm just a phone call away."

"I think we can do the long distance relationship as long we both are committed to each other. But Britt I don't know how that would work in the end for either of us." She says.

"What do you mean? I'm committed to you." I say a bit confused.

"You still have a couple years left in high school then your off to whatever college you choose to go to and that could be anywhere. That mean we could be in a long distance relationship for the next 4 to 6 years. I dont think anyone should have to go through that."

"Britt your so young, you have the rest of your life ahead of you. I know I'm young too but, I don't want you to waste your high school years on a serious long distance relationship when you can be out enjoying your last few years in high school."

"Why does it sound like you want us to split?" I ask her a little hurt.

"That's not what I'm saying. Of course I want to be with you, this is the best relationship I have ever been in and I dont want it to ever end. But Britt I want you to live your youth like you should, I dont want to be the reason you cant go out and explore life in your teenage years."

"So where do we go from here?" I ask trying to process everything.

"I dont know"

"Well first you should figure out what school you want to attend. Then we'll talk about other possibilities for how to handle our relationship going forward, okay?" I ask trying to come up with a temporary solution.

"Yes, I agree."

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Its been about 3 weeks since that conversation under the bleachers and Santana still has not decided which school she wants to go to. Graduation is in a month and Principal Figgins has notified all the seniors and early graduates that they will be starting Graduation Ceremony practice next week. I'm on my way to my locker when Kitty comes up to my locker with a smirk on her face.

"Hey Briiiiitttt"

"What do you want Kitty?" I say wit a slight eye roll.

"You know, I heard you're gonna be single soon with Santana headed off to college. I wanted to make sure I had first dibs." She says as she reaches to caress my forearm.

"Who giving you you're information? Because they don't know what they're talking about. I say as I pull my arm away.

Whoever she's getting her information from, unfortunately they might be on to something. I honestly have no idea what is gonna happen with Santana and I.

"You know...just around. But none the less, when she leaves I will be the first one to jump them bones." She says while slipping me her number on a piece of paper before walking away.

After getting my books for first period I head to class. I toss the piece of paper in the trash as I walk into class.

"Hey Sam, hey Puck" I say as I take my seat.

"Hey, so I heard you and Kitty..." Puck says wiggling his eyebrows.

"Kitty and I what?"

"You know..."Knocked Boots" He said smiling.

"So how was she? Was she any good? Probably not, not after she already took a ride on the Puckster. Aye, that means we both smashed Kitty's kitt..."

"PUCK, stop. What are you talking about?"

"Well I heard she gave you her number"

"Well news definitely travels fast around here, that literally just happened. Although I never did anything with Kitty. Where are you and everyone else getting info from?" I ask getting annoyed.

"Just around, alot of the students were talking about it in the halls."

"Well its not true." I say.

"Well Britt you might want to go let Santana know before she hears about it, which she may have already heard." Sam said.

"Oh shit, your right. Now I'm worried." I say biting my lower lip. Santana is not gonna like these rumors at all.

After class I head to Santana's 2nd period class, as I'm waiting outside her class I see her come around the corner. When she looks at me, she looks pissed an turns around going back around the corner.

"SANTANA, WAIT!" I shout as I quickly try to catch up to her.

I know this is about to be a long ass day. I'm nervous about how this could go, Santana is not into the cheating thing. She does not give second chances. Although I haven't done anything wrong, I know its gonna be hard to get her to even hear me out so that I can clear my name. In other words.... Just wish me luck.