Not So Little Secrets

Chapter Thirty-Four: Going Through The Motions

A/N: FILLER CHAPTER PT.4 OF 4
SHORTER THAN USUAL
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Brittany's POV:

Over the last two months I've been trying to get used to being a mom to 2 new born babies.

I like to think that I'm doing a pretty good job, although I don't really have anything to compare it to.

Santana is definitely doing a great job, but she's done this before. Me on the other hand... This is my first time. So it feels more like a 'Learn As You Go' experience.

The boys have been amazing...

I know this may be a bit cliche but... They grow so fast.

That saying couldn't be more true. You blink, and you might miss their entire first year of life.

Now that they have gotten a bit older, their looks are a bit more defined. Preston is my complexion with brown eyes and blonde hair, whereas Peyton is San's complexion with blue eyes and brown hair.

They are both so very handsome... I don't really know if it's appropriate to refer to them as 'HANDSOME' without definitively knowing if they are both boys.

I don't really care what genders they turn out to be... Im just worried because I want the doctors to figure it out quickly.

If one of the twins turn out to be a girl, I would rather the doctors figure it out now. That way she doesn't have to go through life being known as a boy.

I don't want 'HIM' to be six years old and all his classmates know him as a boy, just for the doctors to figure it out then and 'HE' suddenly has to transition into a 'SHE'.

And that's if we're lucky...

What if they don't figure it out until 'HE' hits puberty and things on his body start to develop in places that they shouldn't... Then what?

Could you imagine being 11 years old and learning that you're no longer a boy and that your 'BOOBS' are growing?

I just want to save my kid the heartache.

I remember when the doctors found out Quinn was a girl... She was 7. They found out late because no one was expecting it, so no one was looking for it.

Quinn was the first to be intersex in our family... Once they realized that she was a girl, they immediately had me checked and saw that I was also a girl.

I was three, which means that I hadn't started school yet. I didn't need to announce to a lot of people that my gender had changed. I just had to tell a few neighborhood kids.

Looking back... That was nothing.

Seeing Quinn go from Quentin to Quinn, was tough on my young mind... Hell, even me going from Brett to Brittany was tough to grasp.

Only because you're a kid and your mind just won't let you understand something so complex.

The thing with Quinn is... No kid could really bother her because she was already so sure of herself.

I can honestly say... That I definitely got that from her.

When I was in middle school a few bullies tried to bully me, but by that point their words didnt mean shit to me. As long as no one tried to put their hands on me, it didn't matter what they said because I knew it wasn't the truth.

If it wasn't for Quinn just being who she was at such a young age, I don't think I would have been either.

Quinn's name change wasn't that drastic because everyone already called her Quinn or Q for short, so they just made Quinn her middle name and added Lucy as her first name.