Not So Little Secrets

Chapter Sixteen: Something Old, Something New... Questions & Games Pt. 2

A/N: I AM F****** SORRY. But I made it with a minute to spear on the day.

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Brittany's POV:

"Hey uh... can I talk to you real quick? I say as I sit on her bed.

"Sure, what about?" She says as she sits on the bed.

"Okay so uh... I know this may or may not be coming out of left field, but I need to get this off my chest." I say releasing a deep breath I didn't know I was holding.

"Britt you can talk to me." She says trying to relax me.

I started pacing back and forth so that I can get my thoughts in order, but each time I turn I catch a glimpse of a worried Santana and it jumbles whatever little order I had. So I guess I'm just gonna have to 'wing it'.

"Okay look I know that this may be too soon but I can't wait anymore without at least trying."

"What are you talking about?"

"Things happened that we couldn't control and I don't feel it was my fault or that I should've been punished for it when I didn't do anything wrong.-"

"Brittany?"

"Everything got fucked up because of a misunderstanding.-"

"Brittany?!"

"Looking back on it, everything that happened, in a way was her fault.-"

"Brittany?!" She says while grabbing my hands, essentially stopping my pacing.

"What are you talking about?" She asked more calmly.

"I'm talking about us, I want to try again." I say looking her right in the eyes.

"What?"

"I want to be with you, with everything that has happened... I don't feel like a misunderstanding should have torn us apart. I didn't do anything wrong, I didn't cheat on you so why can't I have you?"

"I know but, after all this time?" She asked in disbelief.

"Yes, because... I've never gotten over you. I didn't want things to end between us but you broke it off. I mean what was I gonna do, force you to stay with me."

"I don't know what to say."

"Kitty got in the way of a lot, I was willing to do whatever it took to make things work between us. Even if that meant being in a long distance relationship, I would've done it for you... For us." I say as I intertwined our fingers.

"Brittany I dont think you were ready for that, you were so young."

"That didn't matter to me. In high school when I told you that I was all in on you, I meant it."

"But Britt, you would have been distracted from your school work and I would not have been able to handle the guilt if it would've fucked up your future." She says leeting go of my hands.

"Look, what happened, happened. That's the past, but we're here now. Soooo... Can I have another shot. Can you give us another shot? I would get it if I actually cheated on you, but I didn't. So I pretty much lost you for no reason and I've always hated that." I say as I take a seat on her bed.

"I get that an I'm sorry, b Britt things have changed now." She says squating down in front of me.

"Not my feelings, I still love you."

"But Britt it's not just about me anymore. I have Bryce to think about, along with school and work." She says reaching for my hands.

"Whats that suppose to mean? 'YOU have Bryce to think about'? You say it like you think I'm a bad influence on him." I say moving my hands out of her reach.