Not So Little Secrets

Chapter Twenty-Three: 365 Days

A/N 1: The reason for the multiple "small" time jumps is because there is a "big" time jump coming up. The big time jump will be about a different time in their lives. So as I said before, I just gotta get certain stuff out of the way now.

A/N 2: This is a filler chapter. I didnt want to skip their anniversary, so here you go.
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Santana's POV:

Its been two months since my radio interview with WGCX and I've been working nonstop on my EP. Which I had finished two months ago... But I can be a bit of a perfectionist.

"Are you kidding me right now?!" Holly asked in shock.

"No! I'm dead serious... I'm not putting out the EP if this song doesn't get put on there. Its perfect, it's apart of that time in my life."

"San, your EP is to be released next month and you want to add another song to it now?"

"Listen Holly. Just let me finish recording the song and then I'll play it for you. THEN tell me what you think."

"Okay fine... Go work your magic, we don't have all day. You do have a deadline." She says shooing me to the recording booth as she takes a seat.

"Okay Anna... Pick up from the chorus after the first verse." I say adjusting my headphones on my ears.

"You got it." She says as she pressed a button and I started recording once the beat started.

[Chorus]
Rain on me...
Lord, won't you take this... pain from me?
I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe
Baby, just... rain on me
Lord, won't you take this... pain from me?
I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe, babe

[Verse 2]
See, I don't wanna hug my pillow late at night no more
I'm tossing and turning and thinking 'bout burning down these walls
I... don't wanna fuel this fire no more, no more, no more
See, I made up my mind 'cause I've wasted my time
Ain't nothing here to keep me warm... yeah

"Okay, stop it. Play it back for me so I could hear how it sound." I say before taking a sip from my water bottle as I listen to the playback.

"Okay. Let me record those last two lines again...

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Once I finished the song I let Holly listen to it in full to get her opinion on it.

[Bridge]
I'm so tired of the rain... in my life
And I'm so tired of the strain... and now you're gonna lie
'Cause sometimes I can't, sleep at night and
This here it just, don't seem right and
Sometimes I just, wonder why I
Almost let my life go by
Sometimes I can't, sleep at night and
This here it just, don't seem right and
Sometimes I just, wonder why I
Almost let my life go by...

I wrote this song about a week after I broke up with Brittany over the Kitty situation back in high school. At the time I thought she cheated on me and I didn't want to hear anything she had to say because I immediately thought it was gonna be lies.

I know now that she was telling the truth.

But back then, when I didn't know the truth... I would go home and cry myself to sleep or not sleep at all. Let's also understand that I was a bit hormonal from the pregnancy. That didnt help the urges that I had to want to slap Kitty everytime I saw her.

None the less I still love the song, so when Anna played this beat... It just felt like a perfect fit.

[Outro/Chorus]
Rain on me
Lord, won't you take this... pain from me?
I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe
Baby, just... rain on me
Lord, won't you take this... pain from me?
Said I don't wanna live, I don't wanna live
Rain on me
Lord, won't you take this... pain from me?
I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe
Baby, just... rain on me
Lord, won't you take this... pain from me?
And I don't wanna live, I don't wanna live