Not So Little Secrets

Chapter Fourteen: All The First

Santana's POV:

I woke up to the sound of Bryce and Brittany talking as they lay on the other couch across from me. I didnt make any sudden moves to alert them that im awake. I just wanted to watch them have a moment. So I peaked open one of my eyes and watched them in secret.

"You're not leaving right?" He asked as tears well up in his eyes.

"Nope. Now your stuck with me." Britt say in a sorta creepy voice causing him to laugh.

"I happy your staying because I really missed you mama." He said looking a little down.

"Listen Bryce. I want you know, that no matter what, I Love You. I will always love you, more than you will ever know. And there isn't anyone or anything that could ever change that, okay?" Brittany says looking him in the eye.

"Yes mama. I love you too." He says.

"Can I have a hug?" She asked him as she opened her arms .

"Yes, big hug." He says while throwing his arms around her neck.

I couldn't take it anymore, the guilt I felt in that moment... It was just too much.

I got up and ran to the bathroom trying to stop the sound of my cry's from reaching their ears, but of course Brittany heard.

"Hey are you okay?" Brittany asked following me into the bathroom.

Little did Brittany know, that moment on the couch between her and Bryce was like the straw that broke the camel's back. Or in this case, Santana's back. Enough was enough, she needed to admit that she was wrong.

"I am so sorry Brittany, I shouldn't have kept you two apart. You both deserved to be apart of each others life. I fucked up! I thought I was doing what was best for you, I didn't want you to throw away your life for a kid that you would barely see. I didn't want you to one day blame him for being the reason that you didn't achieve something." I say through my cries.

"I would have never done that Santana. Some where deep down you know that. I know what we did all those years ago... we both knew what could happen. Condom or no condom. Obviously it wouldn't have been planned but none the less, I would've been involved every step of the way. You didn't need to do this on your own." She says as she wraps me up in a hug while rubbing my back trying to calm me.

"But Britt I really fucked up. Seeing you and Bryce interact shows me that I fucked up, big time. You missed all his first because of me, and I am so sorry Britt and I don't know how you could ever forgi-" I say getting choked up as I put my face in her shoulder while clinging to her shirt.

"Santana it's gonna take some time for everything to smooth over but I have already begin go forgive you. Yes... you not telling me really sucks. But the fact that you made sure he knew who I was, really means everything to me. I could be starting from scratch with him right now, with neither of us knowing anything about the other's existence. But were not because he knows me, and that's because of you. Stop beating yourself up about this, I'm here now, I know about him and I plan to be around... I'm not going anywhere. I want to help with all things Bryce. So please, stop beating yourself up over this." She says as she places a kiss on my temple.

We stood there for a couple minutes before Bryce decided to come join the hug.

"I want hug too" He said raising his arms.

"Come on buddy" Brittany said pick him up and pulling me back into a hug with my head in the crook of her neck.

"Mami, why you cry?" Bryce asked wiping my tears.

"I'm okay mijo" I say while giving him a small smile.

"I was beginning to wonder if he only knew english." Brittany says through a giggle.