Lifeline

chrisfromthewest

What I would do for you,
I would gather every single sunflower that grew!
I would tell you every single day how much you meant to me!
You're love is as sweet as honey but your death stung like a bee.
I wish I was there to tell you the same thing I told you on the phone,
But now I can't say anything just groan.
I look down at your face and started to analyze it,
But I was about to cry so I went to go sit,
Thinking about how everything changes in a blink of an eye.
You were just trying to get high-
I was the one that wanted to be dead.
But yet your the one that's receiving kisses on your head.
Fuck, now I want this to all come to an end!
I'll start to go back in my old ways and I'll see you later my dearest friend.
Right now I have no motivation to live,
Why is it that people that die are ones that always give?
If you die then I die as well,
I'm not happy but I guess no one can tell!
I hear a beautiful voice!
Just know that this is my choice.
Don't blame yourself for this,
I want to see you Chris!
Tell me how is heaven?
It's a place that I have never been.
But I tried to before when I got on the plane.
Now I am debating if I should drink to numb my pain.
My vision is getting blurry and I can't really think straight,
I am starting to close my eyes and I see this beautiful white gate.
I am walking toward you and the family.
But I realize it's some fantasy.