Lifeline

even if he's my...

Adventures take me to places that I dream of being at while I'm in this cruel world!
When will I be able to escape this place?
Anyone there because I can really use someone!
You would come into my life when it's convenient for you but what about me?
Far from you is where I want to be!
Remember when you would tell me things just joking around?
Occasionally you would bring up things that would trigger my depression.
Many times I thought of your words and funny how they could cut deeper than any knife could.
You would always bring me down when I was feeling confident about myself.
Of course you would tell me it's all in my head!
Ugh, JUST OPEN YOUR EYES AND SEE THAT I AM HURTING!
Is it really that hard for you to do something like that?
Shame on you!
Why can't you see that I just want your love!?
How can I be so stupid for thinking you would love me back!?
Everything that we went through... for this?
Really thought that you would see that I'm hurting!
Even if your words made me want to kill myself more times then I can count.
I just want you to be here for me!
Will you ever see that I want and need you?
Allowing myself to be open and naive was the worse thing I ever did.
Now I am looking at you as I walk out the door...
Telling you once I leave... I am gone...
Then you grab me by my wrist and tell me to not go.
Of course I fall for the trap, why?
But this time I refuse!
Even if he is my-