Jor's Thoughts

Journal Entry 2

So I know no one reads these but worth getting my feelings out ya know, to make my self feel better.

So in my last journal I was talking about my old friend "Joel" lol welllllll i added him on Snapchat...

And literally as soon as I added him he added me back and messaged me...

I was very shookith but also scared/nervous cuz it's been years and I mean years since we've talked. So I was terrified to open it but my friend opened it for me and told me all it said was "whos this" cuz like I didn't have my actual name as my Snapchat

So I had no idea how to respond without sounding awkwardly...

But none the less I responded we talked for a lil bit and at one point it was actually not awkward but then it got heckin awkward and I'm for real sad. Like he asked me why I suddenly added him. And I was just like "idk it's been a while " and he said SAME AND HE WAS LIKE WANTING TO TALK TO ME TOO AND I WAS FLIPPING MY CRAP. Cuz like I wasn't expecting that but after that moment of happiness our convo got hella awkward and I'm sad now.

I'm so freaking socially awkward I can't freaking talk to ppl especially over text. I struggle with that greatly cuz ima high key introvert.

So yeah the whole "conversation" was very short lived and he left me on read so yeah lovin' life rn.

So anywho I thought like it would be the same like take us back to old times. But it was rough and maybe he might keep taking to me and we may become friends again but Idk he's gotta be less awkward so I can be less awkward and yeah a whole mess. Idk. I really need someone to talk to about this because idk I'm so awful at socializing it makes me cry cuz i know people think I'm weird cuz I don't know what to say so I'm lame and idk just feelin all this at once is high key stressin me out but maybe things will get better idk

But yeah this whole thing was a whole mess and Idk what to do.

I need help with talking to ppl like lessons or something in how to be an interesting person that ppl like talking to. But no one likes talking to me I think idk my confidence has been hella low lately and Idk why. Oh whale what can ya do

I say I don't know to much but it's fineeee I'm fineeee everything's fineee

I don't even know what this entry was tbh but anywho ima go read so I can escape reality you're a trooper if you actually made it this far so thanks and I'm sorry.

-Jor : \