Jor's Thoughts

Journal Entry 1

Hiiii so like it's like 3 am I'm very bored and want motivation to write stories but since I have none of said motivation I'm gonna just put random crapola here so that's pretty much the gist of this....

But anywho I had some hella weird dreams last night and one of them got me in my feels

Ima kinda explain

So pretty much in my dream I was with a group of ppl at like a pool party??? And there was like card games and stuff going on under like a tent thing and like idk just seemed like a fun summer night with friends but the only problem was I only recognized one person in my dream and it was one of my old friends from 5th grade that I had a major crush on and like been going to school with ever since (no more crush cuz I was like 10 lol) but like we were close friends at one point and dreaming about him being my friend again really made me miss him and yeah idk just wanted to share...

Since I'm this far I'm just gonna type more details cuz y not

Anywaysssss

So 5th grade I made friends with this boy which was easy for me to do cuz like I was a total "tomboy" I guess u can say (kinda still am I guess) and I know a crap ton about sports and now I'm getting off topic cuz those story's for another day

Okay so I'm not gonna name the boy cuz idk if ppl I know find me on this mystical app or not so let's just call him Joel ?? Idk so "Joel" and me became good friends but like I got this major crush on him.. like we talked a lot in class and he'd sit with me at lunch and he was like my first hardcore crush that wouldn't go away (reminder I was 10 so now I look back and cringe at my 10 year old self having a crush) anyways we like would message on Facebook and stuff too(oh the good ole days) and yeah pretty much we got to middle school and we had literally 0 classes together and our friendship was never the same. In 7th grade we talked a little more cuz I had a class with him but like if we talked it was very short and stuff and like we weren't best buds like in 5th grade. So I'm the type of person that if I have a good friend/family member that's special to me, they always have a place in my heart and I'll never forget them and pretty much "Joel" has always had a spot in my heart cuz he always made me feel really happy and I'll never forget that. But back to the story...

So we went to the same school from 5th grade to high school so about half my life time Ive known this kid and he was in some of my classes throughout high school and we wouldn't really talk and it was actually sort of awkward??? Like we would know each of us were there but never actually speak to each other. Which always made me sad tbh but I'm very shy and awkward in social situations so I wasn't gonna walk up to him and he like "sup dude I miss you a lot let's be best friends again" so yeah that's my sad short story of how I dreamt about "Joel" and now I miss him again and want us to be friends again even though Ik he's changed a ton since 5th grade but still I miss my childhood best friend and I want to go back to how things were and yeah fr sad that prob won't happen but ya know whatevssss

Sooooo that's my story of how I've been in my feels all day because of a dumb dream. congrats if you read through this very dull and poorly written full of grammar mistakes "story" but my fingers kept typing and I'm not going back to fix things now cuz what the hay. Also what even are periods man?? I just realized I didn't use any periods for like half of this so I'm sorry I'm lazy....

I still wanna keep talking but Ik it's time to end this "chapter" jk more like a journal entry...

Ooo journal entry is what ima call these things letzzz goooo wooo

Okay I think ?? I'm done ??? Idk ??

So alrighty then, this was journal entry numbo one-o

Peace out suckerzzzz

-Jor : )