Made For Each Other ( Camren )

" Part - 4 "

      " Lauren's Point Point Of View "

Fuck.

I shouldn’t have talked to Camila Like that. But, What else could i do? She just Agreed to marry me for her father's loan. She is stuck at this situation.

You are probably wondering why my parents fixed my Marriage to Camila,  right?

Let me tell you from the beginning.

My name is 'Lauren Jauregui'. I'm 24 years old. I have just finished my graduation last year. Then i started working with my dad.

I'm their middel daughter. My brother 'Chris' Is elder than me & There is my younger sister 'Taylor'. Our whole family live together.

You are probably thinking  everything is perfect in my life. Let me Tell It's not.

I have a penis. Yes, I was born with it.

Only my family & my best friend 'Normani' know about it.

I got bullied in school because of it. But, I never told my parents about it. Somehow, One day they found it out. Then, Our whole Family got shifted in L.A.

I feel so disgust about this part of myself. I have never dated anyone. I'm a virgin. I couldn’t bring myself into it.

I am sure that If i tell anyone about this part of myself, They will hate me too. They will feel disgusted Towards me.

Then,There is my patents who fixed my marriage with Camila. Poor Girl!I'm feeling bad for her.

I'm really really feeling guilty about earlier. May Be I should Call 'Normani'. Yes!
I'll feel relieve if i talk to her about it.

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"Hello,Mani bear", I said.

"Hi, Lauren. What's up with this tone?? Mani asked with Concern.

"Mani,I messed up. Camila Called me earlier".

Camila Called you? Your would be wife,Right?

" yea, Mani&Ikindasnapped her", I said in one breath.

"You, what?", Mani asked probably not understating a word.

" I snapped at her ", i whispered slowly.

"What? why did you do that, Lauren?

" I was so scared of the whole situation, Mani."

"This is not a good excuse Lauren. You know she is being tied up in this marriage too."

"Yes. I know. That's why I'm feeling guilty about it. I'm sure that my Parents didn’t tell her about my conditions, Mani."

"May be, then you should spoke to her about it.", Mani suggested.

"No"!!!!! I gasped

" Why not Lauren? She is your future wife. She has full right to know it, hasn’t she? "

"Yes, Mani. You are right. But, the way i spoke to her today, I'm sure she hates me now." I said chewing my bottom lip.

"Then, show her the real 'Lauren'. Don't hide yourself from her. "

How, Mani? How can I make up it to her?

"Ask her on date. Get to know each other",  Normani directly said.

" But, I have never been in date before. I'm scared."

"Don't be Lauren.Give Camila & this marriage a fair chance ok?"

"Ok, Mani. I'll. I'll call you later. Bye. Take care.

" Bye, Lauren"

"This is Gonna be tough",  i said to myself.

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I've called Camila 23 times. She is not responding. I know. I kind of deserve that. Then, I dicided to Text her.

To Camila : I'm sorry. I know i was being a great asshole. Please , receive my Call.  Please.

This sound reasonable. I sent it to her. I waited For like 5 minutes & I called Again.This time the call has been picked.

" Hello" I've heard.Her voice is so soft.

"Um. Hi. Actually, I'm really sorry what happened today. I was just too afraid of this situation. That's why i behaved like that Camila.   But, I'm really sorry",  i said feeling little  nervous.

She remained silent for a few moment. I thought she is not gonna speak anything.

" It's ok. Lauren. I know you are trapped in this marriage ",  I heard her saying softly.

"No...No... It's not like that Camila. You are trapped too. ", 

" It's not. My father is just paying his loan through me.",  She sounded so sad.

"Hey, Camila?".

"Yes?".

" Let's get to know each other. Let me take you on a date. Are you free today?",  i asked trying to change the subject that make her sad.

"Yes, I'm free.But, you don't need to do this.", she calmly said.

"What if i really want to?" We are getting married & we don't know about anything about each other. ", I tried to sound convincing.

" Umm. Ok." she said.

"Ok, I'll pick you at 7? Are you ok with it?", I asked her hoping it will be alright.

" yea.I'm ok with 7".

"Ok. Camila. Bye. I'll see you soon.", I said smiling.

"Bye, Lauren", with this she cut the call.

I smiled to myself. May be Mani is right. I should give a fair chance to this Marriage. I hope Camila thinks the same.

I never gave anyone that chance to get to know me. May be, Camila will be exceptional. She is anyway. She is my would be wife.

I just hope she gives this marriage a chance too. With that thought i went back to my work.

A.N : How am I doing so far?