SelfHealing

Apologize

I'm sorry. I'm sorry you were hurt so bad in the past that the future is hard for you. I'm sorry my communication wasn't the best. I went in full force with nothing but the best of intentions and screwed it all up. I'm sorry. I should have been better. I should have done better. Now two people are hurt and it's my fault. Now I've added another scar to your beautiful heart. You are truly and absolutely amazing and I wish we could have continued together we would have been amazing together. But till rightnow i writing this, i still being confused of which way i've to step! I confusing about everything happened between us! Every night, i always afraid of being alone, i afraid that hurt feeling comes to me, i afraid of everything could reminds me with the times you and him, exhausted, broke, destroyed, tired, lonely, hurt, they comes into my mind and make a mess inside. Nothing i could do for handle them, i just let them come without any fight i did. There is many people arround me are cares and trying to make me forgeting of that hurts moment, but they still alive inside myself! In the end? My souls feel like its not in the place that its should be. There is nothing I can say that will ever change your mind. There is nothing I can do to prove to you that you were the only person I thought of. As you said my actions spoke differently to you, though my actions were pure from my view, I understand your side. I always have. I've always had your back and always will. I am always on your side.