Tutor | J-Hope

Twelve

Friday evening, 9:32 p.m. at Yoongi's House
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"Wake up lazy," I heard someone say. My eyes fluttered open while I flew forward. My forehead hit with something hard.

"Ouch." I grabbed my head. Then realized that something was actually a someone. Hoseok sat in his seat clutching his forehead too while giving me a deathly glare.

"Ugh. Why'd you do that?" He asked, groaning from the slight pain.

"Sorry," I mumbled, to embarrassed to speak up. I slowly pushed my head back up to look him in the eyes.

"Did I scare you something?" He was now checking his reflection in the mirror.

"Kinda. I had a bad dream so when you woke me, I freaked," I chuckled. He put his mirror back up.

"What was the dream about?" He asked, looking directly into my eyes.

"Nothing. Just stuff," I mumbled again, playing with my fingers.

"Y/n, you can tell me," he tried once more. "It's okay."

"Hoseok, I would rather not." I said. "So shall we go in?" I changed the subject to avoid further questioning.

"Yep! Let's go!" He clapped his hands.

Little did I know that he really saw me tossing and turning in my sleep. He knew what the dream was about. It had been a nightmare about my brother. I was mumbling things such as, 'he isn't dead' or 'help him'. I only found out that he knew a couple years later.

The party was, well, interesting. There were many, many people here. It was bigger than Jungkook's party, and that's saying a lot. Since his house was an hour out of town, it was also extremely loud. One corner had large speakers that blasted music through the room. Looking around, you could almost find everything at the party. Right corner had a bar stacked with booze. Far left was the druggies and their shit. The last corner was across from us. Past the speakers you could see the boys sitting there.

Hoseok grabbed my hand and dragged me over to that corner. When we got there I noticed how the music was quieter behind the speaker. Jimin was on Yoongi's lap, as always, playing with the elders earrings as Yoongi drank. Jungkook and Taehyung were no where in sight. Namjoon and Jin were talking, occasionally flirting. There was also a girl over here, but she seemed to engrossed in her phone to notice anything. The girl looked somewhat familiar, but my angle wasn't the best so I might be wrong.

"Hey guys!" Hoseok's cheery voice brought their eyes upon us.

"Hobi!" Drunk Jimin yelled as he jumped from his boyfriends lap to wrap his arms around Hoseok. "Miss you!"

"Ok Jimin, enough," Yoongi's strong voice as heard from behind his boyfriend. You could tell he was a little jealous because of the affection Jimin was giving Hoseok.

"Yoongi's right Chim." Hoseok said, unwrapping the younger's arms. Jimin walked back over to Yoongi with a slight pout. "How'd you get the party started so early?"

"I didn't. She did." Yoongi pointed over to the girl who was on her phone. "Yah! Hobi's here!"

"Hobi my babe!" She yelled while running up to give Hoseok a big bear hug, the boy not failing to accept.

I could feel my stomach turn at the sight. All I wanted to know was who she was. Or how does she know Hoseok? Or why does she call him babe? All these thoughts ran through my mind at the same time another one did, I'm jealous.

"Honey-pie!" He yelled as he lifted her up and spinning her around. I cleared my throat, explaining that I need an introduction without saying anything.

His head swung over my way. He quickly winked, making me go red, as he put her down. "This is Ka Y/n! Do you remember her brother?"

"Oh my goodness! The infamous Y/n? Of course I remember her brother, who would forget?! It's so nice meeting you! I'm Bae Suzy!" The girl smiled. As soon as she turned my way I knew who she was. Bae Suzy was a famous Kpop idol from the group Miss A. She was such a huge inspiration for me.

"Woah. Y-you're Bae Suzy!" I said, more like fangirled over her poor soul.

"Yep that's me!" She said. The smile on her face getting even more prominent.

"You knew my brother? How?" I asked her.

She chuckled. "Let's go get some drinks, shall we?" Her arm swung out and I took it.

We walked across the room, heading to the bar. I had figured out that Jungkook and Taehyung were on the dance floor, grinding their body's against the less dressed females there. Taehyung occasionally making out with a guy or something. Suzy went behind the counter and pulled out a bottle of vodka and other things. She poured some into two red cups and handed me one. I took a sip, letting he horrid alcohol roughly go down my throat.

"So to be honest, your brother and I used to fuck," she said, weirdly calm. I choked on some of the drink.

"What?" I asked her because I was completely sure that I had heard that wrong.

"Yeah. He was good too. What, he was about eight-"

"I don't need to know details of my brother on the subject of sex!" I spat out. My eyes were huge, and she just laughed.

"Sorry. But in all honey, he was a good guy. I'm so sad about everything. I'm sorry," she said while patting my back to reassure me.

"It's fine. But how'd you meet?" I asked her only to make her laugh again.

"He went to one of our fan signings for a poster for his younger sister, you I assume." I nodded and let her continue, "I also wrote down my number on a sticky note because I thought he was cute and from then on we were talking. He knew I couldn't date and that was fine with him. We fucked a couple of times, but overall we were just really, really good friends."

"Oh. Cool." I hummed.

"Yeah. I can't believe the last thing he said to me was that letter because before that I would've told him I loved him." She sighed.

"You were inlove?" I asked, shocked that my brother could have something with a girl.

"Yeah. He said it in the letter. You know I couldn't bring myself to read it for a whole month after he died," a tear slid down from her cheek as she spoke.

"What letter?"

"His suicide letter. It was heartbreaking," she choked out.

"He didn't have a suicide letter."

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Ok just so you know I'm uploading all of these chapters so that I get the urge to write more.

Also this story does deal with touchy subjects so if you are offended or are dealing with something like this don't be afraid to speak out.

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