Wheels Down| Spencer Reid

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Of course I know Rossi is dead. I just... forgot, for a little while.

I let them give me morphine the first few days in the hospital. JJ says it made me loopy and she thought I didn't sound like myself. I was just glad the pain was gone.

It's been a week since we were rescued, and honestly, I don't feel any different. Being in the woods I felt like I had a purpose. I felt like I was a leader and that I had people that actually needed me.

Here I'm just... empty. I'm no one. I'm a kid in a hospital bed who can't even remember how he got injured. I'm useless.

Penelope hugged me really tight when she got to California. Her happiness was short lived.

David Rossi. It always comes back to him, like he came back to us.

It's my fault. We all know it is, but everyone has been avoiding the elephant in the room: I left him by the jet to bleed out.

It should have been me. I wish it was me.

A/N: this sucks oops

But I updated ;))