Feeling

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we know our self, we can control mind,control everything's but heart,its not upon us,heart is owner of himself,we can't control not to love that person,who leave us,who never came back for us,

jimin leave me.

tae take long breath trying to calm down himself,he is holding his tears back not to cry anymore.he is tired of looking way,hoping jimin came back.

still,I have hope,one last hope"

I slowly take my step back from door,I realized I'm crying its not big thing for cry,but I'm still weak for jimin.

tae!!!!!!!
:jin is yelling my name from kitchen.

then,I got out from my thought,

why I'm still thinking about him?
why???
I closed my eyes once for not thinking

yes,jin hyung  I'm coming.

I open the door of bathrroom for taking shower,

life of Actor,I talk to myself pulling my hairs with my hands.

ughhhhhhhh!

After,finishing shower,I choose some clothes for me,and I take my phone,sandle,bags and run towards downstairs.

good morning:I said.

good morning: joon  hyungreply while reading new lyrics.

where is yoongi and hobi hyungs?I didn't see them from last night!

they are in studio,we're now working on our new albums,they are working hard this is best song than before.

I wish song gonna be amazing,I reply with small smile on my face.

thanku tae,we think so: joon replied

jin hyung  what is in breakfast?

your favorite!

really?

hmmm

I can't wait.

oh ,tae just little okay

nod*

namjoon sounds fake cough, guys I'm here too!

we both laugh in joon childness.

well,thanku so much for food jin hyung,I give him side hug .grabbed my things giving final bye for jin hyung and joon hyung.

good morning sir,my driver bowed at me.

good morning,hyung let's go.(he is actually older than me)

I open the door of back sit,and put my all things there,let's go hyung.

he start driving,today I have my much difficult scene with my co actress Min.
we know eachother from high school,we're best friend with jimin.

*signs,

hyung, play some music,drive is long!
  

yes,master.

our ride is completely two hours long,atmosphere is silent,I love to capture scenario in my eyes,I love to feel cold wind in my face.

song start playing,The truth untold.

tae who is enjoying the view from car window got interrupt by song.

he slowly turn his head toward the where the song is playing,he feels a heavy pain in his chest,lips are trying to say word but something is stopping him to do so.

he gently close eyes to listen each words of song,song is very emotional with every word the singer is singing.

pain,hurt,scared,broken,love,sacrifice very mix emotions song tae think.

🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶
But I still want you !
  I.   still want you.

why always me,why only I have to suffers,why I'm the one who hurt,whyyyyyyyyyy

he want screaming remembering his past,which still hunts him,whenever he remember he hurt himself more,he has to suffer more,he try things don't like he didn't try,but winds brings things,circumstances,even the people who related in past,he is trying not to think jimin who leaves him a years ago,and never come back,never try to call him others hyungs,

No one know where is he,he still alive or dead?

I know,he is still alive cause I'm too,I'm breathing means he is breathing too,my heart is beating means his heart too.

I touch my heart with close eyes,my lips trying to say,I try

I can feel you jimin.

Master,we arrived.

my driver stop the car,I try to smile even tho it is fake,I give him small smile before leaving car,he bowed at me and I greet him
" have a great day"

hello,Mr.kim,good morning I choose this place for romantic scene, how is it?

Good morning,Mr.Dong I greet him back,trying to show I'm so happy, siding my problems and my past with myself,Actor is very hard profession for me,we have to show good sides of us, but we have two face,one in camera and one behind camera.

actually, I love the place you choose,it is pretty I can say.

I'm glad you love the place Mr.Kim.producer Dong replied.

see you there,leaving him ,I walk to my make up room being ready for my shot.

good morning,a female voice very familiar with me,my friend Min greet me with big smile carrying her face come toward me for giving me hug.

good morning Min,how are you?
and your breakfast?

oh,tae I'm fine and I already did it. I'm so happy today.

why? I ask her giving us some space,

we're going to busan for our last scene, you know busan ismy home town,I miss so much my home tae,mom,dad and my sisters.

I'm going my home for shooting,my family and fans would be very proud, she tell me while clapping her both hands.

What? I'm in hell shocked,what the hell happening with me from morning isn't enough, now this?
I yelled in anger and holding my tears back.

tae,what's the matter?

Busan is jimin hometown,jimin family don't want to see my face Min,they hate me.

I Can't do this!!

But,tae its for just week then we'll come back,don't panic okay,calm down,she massage my back for me calm down.when I got panic or nervous I need people touch or jin hyung voice for me.

Breath in __ Breath out

Breath in __Breath out

Min help me and I finally calm down,

okaaayyy,I tell her in crack voice.

This week is going for me very hard one,I need someone with me.

Sir,please we need make you ready!

okay, I'm ready !

voice is annoying, scared, Min is thinking what makes tae like this   after listening busan name.

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after makeup he looks like this.




















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