Suicide Angels - Why Dont We Family-

I messed up but you made it better

Disclaimer- underage drinking smoking and drug use I sowwy

Zach

I wake up in a bed that wasnt my own.
I was laying in a mattress in the middle of the floor feeling someones body heat behind me and thats when the memories of last night came back.

Last night i came to get pills which i got but another man I didnt know was there he introduced himself as Kevin he made me kinda nervous.

I look down and realize I'm naked that were both naked my heart rate beats fast I kept telling myself thst I didnt do that stuff last night but i couldnt remember the last thing I remeber was Kevin's voice whispering in my ear "your easy just like your brother" that brought tears to my eyes I didnt know the whole story of what happened last night but all i know was kevin drugged me amd I guess we did some things I was so upset i cant believe what I did I remember drinking and smoking right before everything happe ed but nothing to bad and now I'm like a slut i slept with hopefully only one person but im 14! I cant do that shit! Why the fuck! Why am i so screwed up? Why am I like this? What would jack and daniel think of me if they knew what I did? If they knew I smoked some weed last night or a few cigarettes I'm 14 thats fucking illegal I could get me or my dads in seriois trouble if anyone found out they werent watching me and I did that shit oh my god im so terrible I probably worried them sick I need to get home this man is a pervert he tricked me into sleeping with him.

My lower area hurt so bad but I needed to get out of here and get back home as soon as i can now I know why I'll never be my parents favorite child and why my brothers left they dont wanna be with a kid like me a disgrace and a horrible person. I was in pain bur i had to push through that and be tough I had to walk across town to get home and the sun was already starting to rise i had school today to im not going I could one convince my dads that I was very sick or two ditch I immediately knew the answer ditch my dads werent going to let me stay home especially since tommrow was the last day of school they wouldnt believe that I'm sick.

By the time im home the sun was slightly rising once home I see my dads bedroom door open I peak in seeing them cuddled up to the other both peacefully asleep under the white bed covers I go to the bathroom after grabbing some clothes from my room and strip down looking at myself in the mirror I was even uglier than before dark purple hickeys littered my collar bone and chest I take a long shower the tears I shed running down the drain with the water I couldnt believe myself right now.

I quickly got dressed and left the bathroom I wasn't paying attention my mind was to clouded with the thoughts of last night but the bad thing was i felt I needed more of what ever that man gave me.

The only thing that brought me back to reality was when my body collided with another i stumbled and almost fell on my butt but someone caught me "oh god zach you scared me" I heard my dads voice he had his hands on my back as if he was afraid to let me go I was to scared to talk my throat felt tight I just really wanted to cry i wanted him go hold me and tell me that he loved me and everything would be okay I wanted to tell him what I did but I couldn't i was to afraid I knew he was going to be so mad at me for my actions.

"Baby whats wrong? Why are you awake so early" he asks in a nuce gentle tone I felt my eyes tear up and i think he noticed because he pulled me to his chest "whats wrong baby?" He whispered lightly in my ear as he picked me up and carried me to my room setting me on my bed and crouched down infront of me I was still refusing to cry but it was very difficult.

"Tell me whats wrong" he spoke softly "n-nothing I'm fine just a tad sick i guess?" I said like a question I gelt him put his hands on my forehead and cheeks before signing "you feel a little warm but you have to go to school today" he said I nodded "and zach I really mean that dont try to skip school something really bad could happen" he said like he was reading my mind I bit my lip and looked down at my feet my lower back hurt so badly I nod my head "zachy stop being so sad all the time theres no reason to be sad" he said in a soothing voice sitting beside me on the bed wrapping his arm around my shoulders "No its fun being sad" I say quietly laying my head against his chest I just wanted to enjoy the moment a moment where I had his full attention he slightly messed with my hair "its not fun baby and you know it just please try and be happy..for me" he said his voice was soft and sweet "I love you daddy" I say quietly my vision blurring from tears. "Dont cry baby i love you more and always will" he says hugging me tightly I missed this so so much I just wished I was better i wished i was as good as daniel and jack I wished I was beautiful I wish I could restart and be perfect for my dads I wished I wasn't a fuck up I wish I wasnt a waste of life i cant do anything right my dads and brothers are just going to be even more disappointed in me when they find oit what I did last night

Dad drove me to school making sure I actually went I had no other choice I gulped as we pulled up to hell or yeah I mean hell I didnt want to go in I hated it so much the bullies just never know when enough is enough.

The minute i walk into school I was shoved but I caught my balance and continued my walk to my locker my head held low before I went to my first class.

School went by quickly but it was still a living hell all the teachers were in bitchy moods and the kids just love pushing me around like a rag doll and calling me nasty names. After school I take my time walking home mainly because of the pain in my lower back when I finally get home just as I assumed both of my dads cars werent in the driveway but i didnt pay mind to that it was normal I just really wanted to crawl into my bed and sob my heart out.

When I get inside I toss my back pack against to wall I was just so sad I didnt care anymore and I quickly go to my room not even noticing who was waiting for me on the couch I was to distracted.

Hey guys its been a hot minute and this chapter is kinda short but I hope you like it im going to try and update more on this story but comment what you thought of this chapter and plz comment some idead you have in mind💛