Tainted heart!

Perfect addiction

We used to talk daily and Instagram wasn't really a good source. Our interest in each other led us to exchange our numbers. He had a short vacation so it gave us enough time to talk. And finally i got to know about his blogs and the reason behind it. I saw another side of him. The side which i had never imagined.

I knew it was too fast to feel anything for a complete stranger but do we have control over our feelings?We used to talk all day and night and still feel time gone by in blink of an eye. We were so damn addicted to each other. He was in other country so there was no possibility of meeting him until he completes his semester and gets a reallllllyyyyy long vacation. Sounds so dreadful right? I don't know why but for some unknown reasons i was ready to wait for him. "This can be toxic, this already sounds toxic" is all my senses were screaming but the butterflies in my stomach said a whole different story.

He was a workaholic and a career focused man. His vacations were over so he got busy between work, college and assignments. We didn't get much time to talk like we used to but when we did, he made sure i was his first priority.

We had this instant connection – we became close. Later, he began opening up to me, and I, to him. We shared secrets we never dared tell anyone else. We eventually became each other's confidantes. After his first relationship leaving him shattered, he didn't believe others when they told him they genuinely cared for him. He tried to shield himself from the impending pain that he assumed would come, especially when they realized how "complicated" he was. But, I , somehow managed to break through his walls. For him, I was willing to listen to all of his fears and doubts and tried my best to let a bit of sun shine on him, to make him realize he deserve so much better than he thinks.

I had already fallen for him and this wasn't good. We had been talking for months and i had all this crazy, strong feelings for him. He wasn't much of an expressive person but I wasn't a dumb either, I was pretty sure he too did have feelings for me. We didn't had the need to have the fear of being judged, we could talk about anything and everything.

I wasn't exactly sure when it happened. Or when it even started. All i knew for sure was that right here and now, i was falling hard and i could only pray that he was feeling the same intensity of love. Love does not appear with any warning signs. You fall into it as if pushed from a high diving board. No time to think about what's happening. It's inevitable. An event you can't control. A crazy, heart-stopping, roller-coaster ride that just has to take its course.

We were in love and we both knew it without even telling that L-word to each other. He had his own reasons to put his guards high. I never pushed him or neither did i attempted to say, not that i was afraid of how he would react but i had this feeling that when he thought was the right time, he would eventually confess his feelings and that day wasn't too far. I just hoped, the day will come sooner.

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It must sound crazy to hear someone falling in love so soon. And yeah, it wasn't a fling or lust. Don't we all have someone with whom we click instantly, well he was the one for me. I am sorry if the story is going to soon but this is a real story and I didn't wanna add some imaginary events. Hope y'all had a good day. <3

Xoxo 💋