I Told You I Want to Die

C6

Woohyun ignored the look of surprise on Sunggyu's face and took the food. He placed them all in the fridge. He'll heat them all up later if he gets hungry. And he can pretend that he's cooking for Soohyun.

Sunggyu  studied him in shock. He sat on the couch and stared at the furniture. At the wall. At the floor. He rocked back and forth (it's a habit that grew over the years) and stared. Until Woohyun came onto his line of vision.

"Ok, fine. I agree to the deal." Woohyun said. Sunggyu looked up at him. His intrusion is getting easier. Sunggyu just tilted his head to the side in question to what Woohyun said.

"If you really want to be here, you can. But like you said, you have to bring me food." Woohyun explained. "Particularly that food." Sunggyu nodded and continued to rock back and forth. Woohyun's head ached. This bastard's giving him access to the past but he has to sacrifice his privacy. He knows that he could just let the bastard stay outside his home, but after much thought, he changed his mind. He's in a rational state now; somehow Sunggyu helped him for that. Sunggyu's voice always made it's way through his head whenever he decided to cut himself. Since then, Woohyun gave up on cutting himself.  He didn't want to hear Sunggyu's voice in his head. Stopping his vices made him think clearer somehow.

"But we have ground rules," Woohyun added. Sunggyu looked at him in question. All of a sudden, Woohyun felt pissed.

"Are you trying to act cute in front of me? Stop doing that." he complained. Sunggyu's small eyes widened and he laughed. Woohyun shuddered at the almost beautiful sound.

"I'm not trying to act cute, Woohyun," Sunggyu said and smiled. The way he said Woohyun made Woohyun shudder. Because of revolt? He didn't know. Sunggyu's smile also blinded him. It's too bright.

"No smiling. That's one of the ground rules." Woohyun said and looked away from Sunggyu's beaming face.

"Well, that's irrational. A person has to smile every once in a while."

"Well, I don't like smiling. I don't like to smile. I don't like you smiling." Woohyun said through gritted teeth. He clenched and unclenched his fists. Sunggyu understood and turned his smile into a frown.

Woohyun nodded and proceeded. "No rocking back and forth. It's annoying." Sunggyu sat still. "Don't talk to me unless I'm talking to you and you have to be at least two meters away from me. The bathroom, bedroom and kitchen are off-limits. You're only allowed in the living room. Understood?"

Sunggyu nodded. "But what happens if I disobey?"

Woohyun hadn't thought about that. "Um... I'll cut myself in front of you."

Sunggyu winced but nodded. He didn't want Woohyun to get hurt so he reminded himself of the rules.

Suddenly, they heard a loud honk outside. Sunggyu jumped on his seat. Woohyun turned to look outside, anger and irritation evident in his eyes. Sunggyu stood and followed Woohyun who went outside to probably shout at the person who owned the car. Sunggyu could only gasp when he saw Hoya’s car parked in front of Woohyun’s house. The window of the driver’s seat was rolled down, showing a very angry Hoya.

Sunggyu ran past Woohyun. He mouthed an apology at Hoya and Woohyun and climb into the backseat. Hoya’s car surged forward, pushing Sunggyu back into his seat.

“What the hell were you thinking, Sunggyu?” Hoya asked. Sunggyu could clearly see the irritation and anger that was built up in Hoya.

“Nothing happened, Hoya. He was actually nice this time.” Sunggyu reasoned out.

“I don’t fucking care, Gyu. He could still choose to hurt you. Value your life.”

“Well, I don’t fucking care about my life anymore, Hoya. I care about Woohyun’s.”

Hoya stared him down through the mirror. He stepped on the accelerator. Sunggyu couldn’t ignore the way his heart raced in his chest. He sat with fear until they reached their destination. Sunggyu saw the familiar buildings of his university. He actually felt relief when he saw the students that were strolling around, oblivious of the racing car. Thankfully, Hoya’s anger dissolved through the ride. He parked his car perfectly at his reserved spot at the school’s parking lot. He got off first and walked off, not even bothering to wait for Sunggyu.

"It's been days, Sunggyu! Days! And you didn't even bother showing your face here at the campus!" Hoya yelled. Sunggyu tried to catch up to him.

"I have my personal matters to take care of. You know that!" Sunggyu yelled. Hoya stopped and turned to Sunggyu.

"Yes, I do know about your fucking personal matters. But your students need you to graduate." Hoya stressed. 

"I know that... I just.." Sunggyu stuttered. "God, I don't know." he said and ran his hand through this hair.

"Just as I thought. You're nothing but a selfish bastard." Hoya spat and walked towards the auditorium. His words pierced Sunggyu's heart straight through, living him speechless. Yes, he's a selfish bastard. He knows that. But Hoya doesn't understand that he has finally found someone to whom he wants to give everything. Everything he is and everything he has. Never has he dedicated so much of himself to a person. It's a big change for him but he embraced it fully.

"You don't know, Hoya. You don't know me at all." Sunggyu whispered to the cold air.

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Sungyeol knows that he's not really an observant person, but he's noticing so much from his brother's actions.

He didn't really care about Hoya. As far as he's concerned, Hoya is just a dance teacher to him. Sungyeol never bothered to pester his stepbrother with his plans or questions. He accepted his chodingness and he's not ashamed to show it, but he feared Hoya's temper. The guy is good in humiliating people. And Sungyeol doesn't want that to happen to him anytime soon. He doesn't want failing grades either.

Hoya is more irritated than ever. He's more irritated than a girl who has her period. Sungyeol laughed at his comparison although the observation called for some seriousness. He watched as his brother taught his classmate a dance step. His classmate had a frown on his face as Hoya repeatedly showed him the dance step. He just couldn't do it. Sungyeol grinned, happy that he got a few of his brother's dace genes. He was able to do the step Hoya's teaching once he saw it.

It's none other than Hoya's signature step, the Scorpion dance.

Going back to the serious matter at hand (which Sungyeol found hard to do since he's already laughing because of Hoya's red face), Sungyeol also noticed that his brother doesn't hang out with Sunggyu anymore. He missed the times that Sunggyu nagged at Hoya. Sungyeol likes real life entertainment. But he constantly wondered about what happened between them. His friend, Myungsoo, doesn't help. Everytime he's sure that he's forgotten about his brother's problems, Myungsoo opens his mouth and reminds him. Sungyeol just punches him.

After a few more tries, his classmate finally got the step right. Sungyeol clapped and smiled widely. Hoya sighed and glared at him. Everybody watched as their dance teacher walked out of the auditorium. Suspicions were instantly passed around. Several of the students looked at Sungyeol. He couldn't help but get pissed. He's not supposed to be involved.

"Yeol, let's go out." a soft voice said beside him. Sungyeol looked upon Myungsoo's knowing eyes and stood. Together, they walked out of the auditorium. But once they got outside, they had to conceal their surprise as they saw Hoya crying his heart out.