love & regrets❤️

chapter 1, A new beginning

it was a normal day in italy, rainy and cloudy same as everyday this week. School was finally over and summer had begun but i didn't care it was boring anyway, you might think that it's stupid of me to think like that but in my defense i'm the summer i just work for my dad and his company. It's been like this for years ever since my mom and sister died, don't get me wrong i miss them like hell but you have to move on and my dad is still working on that. I would work everyday 6am-8pm in construction, i think my dad loves it because it is a way of getting rid of all that anger he has inside of him but for me it's just another way to show me how much my life is fucked up. That may be brutal but i am 15 years old and i'm doing nothing but work all day every day in the rain on my summer break with no sister to help or no mother to make food, okay enough of that sob story let's get to the real stuff. When i was on break i got on my lap top and watched some episodes of my favorite show "the walking dead" i know i know that shows kinda lame but i love it and it got me thinking about acting and how much i enjoyed it, so i looked up some auditions and they were all in La so i filled a form out and sent it to a page and saved it so i could get a response, in the meantime i needed money. Normally people ask their parents for money but i have a parent that waists all his money on drugs and alcohol, so i had to figure out something.

*8pm, done with work*

I asked if i could go around town looking for a job that hires 15 year olds and i only found some, babysitting, yard work, and singing. three things i hate, i mean i like children but they can be annoying some times but there was no way i was going to do more yard shit and sing. So it had to be babysitting, i signed up online and already got 2 requests, one tomorrow and another the next day but of course they were on a weekend which is when i get off from construction. Babysitting would take me months to get money so i needed another job so i signed up for yard work too which was after tomorrow's babysitting, a lot of work just to move to la. maybe i should ask my dad for some money, i walked inside and found my dad drunk. I know it's bad to manipulate people in this state but he brought this on himself, i asked him for money and he just started smiling. i asked why he was smiling and he just simply said....