letters | nct dream

no. 29 • epilogue

Thank you all so much for sticking with this story til the end

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ahri

here goes nothing.

envelopes, papers, and sticky notes are what greeted us once i opened the box. majority of it looked old, while some looked like it was just made yesterday.

i rummaged through the box and found a really old envelope, 'for 18 years old me only' was written on it with almost illegible handwriting. i opened it and renjun and i silently read it.

'dear fyuture me,

how are you? are you r̶e̶e̶c̶h now? are you a universully renouwned godesss now? are you a doctor now? are you and big brother in london now? did dad arrive home now? are we a compleet happy family again? hehe so sorry if i ask too many questions, i'm just curius hehe.

i just want to tell you that you are amazinge in every wey no matter what other peeple think. i hope your happy now and i hope you married a super duper handsum idol or else. ok on to more serius matters...'

the letter got cut off but i couldn't help but smile. even though she couldn't spell a lot of words right, i think it was cute.

renjun stood up.

"where are you going?" i asked.

he remained silent. dickhead. he lifted the box and dumped all the contents of the box onto our clean, carpeted floor.

"yah! i just cleaned this carpet! have you seen how dusty most of the letters are?!" he ignored my whining and sat on the floor again.

"are you deaf?!" he only gave me a glare as a reply... okay, nice talk.

we continued to read the old letters until we got to the new ones and only two remained.

"uh, hey.. this got your name on it.." i pointed to the envelope i was holding.

"and this one has yours.." He pointed to the one he was holding.

we swapped envelopes and started to read the ones designated to us.

'dear ahri,

i have so many things to say, but i'll try my best to fit all of them into this piece of paper.

first of all, thank you so much, for everything. you don't know how much gratitude i'm holding inside my heart for you. all those times you tried to cheer me up, i appreciated it even though my face didn't show. i was already broken when you discovered me and you knew it, yet, you still hung out with me. you tried to collect all my broken pieces and connected them back together, but you know.. you couldn't do that. you did something better; you gave me your parts to replace all my missing ones, i can't express how grateful i am to you. i hope this will suffice.

you're a great friend, no matter what anyone says, never forget that, and carry it forever. you helped me all the time, you took care of me, and you did it at the cost of your own health. you didn't get much sleep because of my secret admirer and it's my fault. i'm sorry. i'm sorry for being dependent to you. i'm sorry for being a burden. i'm sorry for being useless. i'm sorry for everything. my mother is right, you would be better off without me. i tried to ignore her words but it still haunts me every time i remember it. i wanted to ignore you like i did with my childhood friends because i just bring you hardships and pain. i'm sorry that i'm bad luck. but when i see you every time we hang out, you don't show that you dislike me so i have hope that you have fun hanging out with me. i'm sorry it took me so long to smile, i know it was all you ever wanted to see.

i know it's selfish of me to ask but; please stay by my side forever. you're all i have and i can't lose you too. i hope our friendship continues on until forever. you're the best person i've ever met, you're the best gift i've ever received.

again, thank you and i'm sorry.

-wonyoung'

i dropped the piece of paper on the floor. tears of regret, joy, and sorrow flowed through my cheeks. regret for not meeting wonyoung earlier in her life, joy for all the memories we created together, and sorrow because i know that those memories will remain like that, nothing more and nothing less.

thank you and sorry as well..