Diary of a Lightworker

My Quiet Days With God

It's September 2025, it has just stopped raining- after several months of terrible heat- the rain felt good. I walked towards home with a friend, we celebrated her birthday inside a restaurant, we chatted merrily and I gave her a simple gift that made her smile. A customized shirt printed with her favorite Asian Actor- we said our goodbye and I continued walking, on my hand was my purple umbrella. I breathed a sigh of relief and entered my room, my space- you see I chose to live alone- Lightworkers tend to absorb energy from other people, that is why we cannot stay with them in one house for long periods of time. We need time to recharge- this particular day felt really relaxing and calming to me, after dropping my bag on my bed- I took my green towel and prepared myself for a shower- the water was good. It felt cool in my hands, what a joy- my mind is relaxed, and unusually happy-I felt a lightness of being, a misty wind if you may call it on my face- perhaps the whisper of God. Earlier this morning I fervently prayed to Jesus Christ for assistance so that my earthly body can withstand the daily pressures of life- my body remained energized for the rest of the day- I felt refreshed despite the traffic, the heat of the morning, the throng of people walking  towards me in public spaces- these days I spend in another dimension - I am here on earth but my soul is resting on another plane- These are my Quiet Days with God- 

Today is the birthday of my Grandfather, I didn't call or send a word- I wasn't mad or anything- my earth body doesn't compel me to build relationships or attachments. I pray for my family during the day and spend the rest of my time living inside my mind- moment by moment I talk to God- about everything- I still sin, I have sinful thoughts, I tend to gossip at times, and catch myself thinking of thoughts that are unjust- which means I am still in my human form- the only difference is that I am now aware and catch myself- to be human is to err indeed-- we cannot help it, its as if our brains sabotage us on a daily basis and only awareness help us control our actions- I strive for as long as I can to maintain a connection with the Divine Spirit - when I talk to God I am at my happiest- I don't observe the world, I don't get affected by the pain- I became an observer- not a participant and for several seconds a day I am able to find peace- on a different plane or dimension while living inside this earth body- this earth shell. 

Each day I find relief, joy, boundless energy and calm- before my awakening- I didn't really spend a lot of time talking to God- these days, it became an absolute essential. Unknowingly, my Spirit changes from day to day- the usual worries are starting to fade- I became much more trusting of life itself- Who would have thought that talking to Jesus Christ every hour of the day would give me such relief- from the daily madness- like the cool water after a long day of excruciating heat- my body feel refreshed- I don't know how to describe it at times- I am at a loss for words- its as if I am drinking from a Fresh Spring, that contains everything that I need- these days, waking up is no longer painful. I used to want to end my own life, it used to be empty- desolate- barren- My Spirit has been uplifted- these are my Quiet Days with The Lord My God-- 

These days it doesn't feel like I am living in the world, my body is here but my mind is in tune and caught up somewhere- this feeling is unbeknown to me- and yet it is here and this is my attempt to phrase it or describe it-