Disney Dreams - Septiplier Fanfiction

Chapter 37 - Back to the loneliness

Jacks POV

Drip, drip, drip, drip...

The rain was pouring down harder than it has for a long time. Or was that just me? Is it just the pang of sadness that make it seem worse? Here I was again, back in Ireland and back to being alone. It's been nearly a month since I returned from what can only be described as the best time of my life. Mark and I have been speaking almost every day since I returned, but it's not the same. I miss seeing his face. I miss feeling his touch.

It's getting hard to cover up my feelings, hard to paint on a smile. My subscribers are starting to get suspicious and can see something is wrong as I just don't seem to be able to bring my usual bouncy, energetic self into the videos. That's why I have to make a decision. I need to stop making videos for a while as it just doesn't seem fair. At least not until I'm in a better state of mind.

I leant against the kitchen worktop facing the window and held a warm mug of coffee. While deep in thought and watching the rain fall and slide down the window pain, I gently stroked the sides of the green mug with my thumbs. Slowly I pushed myself away from the worktop and made my way into my recording room. Then I sat down heavily in my chair and began to set up my computer. While everything was loading I sat back in my chair and began to twiddle my fingers. I knew what I had to be said but it was finding the right words. I can't tell anyone about me and Mark yet, still only Matt and Ryan know besides us. So it will be tricky trying to say that I'm having a break without explaining exactly why I feel this way. Also I don't want anyone to worry about me. Things will be fine... I hope.

Just as I was about to hit record a Skype call was coming through. It was Mark! I scrambled to my mouse to accept the call.

"Hey Jack, how are you doing?", he asked in a rather dreary tone predicting my response.

"Ah same old you know. Nothing ever changes around here", I replied in almost the same tone.

"Heard anything about your Visa yet?", Mark questioned hopefully.

I shook my head, wishing that I had another answer to give him. I'd applied for a Visa to live in the USA some weeks ago but it could take months before I hear anything. Even if I do get approval, it could take months after to sort the details of the move. I can't move until I have this and nothing was frustrating me more. The good thing was at least I could talk to Mark about everything. He seemed to be the most level headed of the two of us and had a way of making me feel more positively about the situation.

"I've got some news that will cheer you up anyway, there will be a surprise arriving in a few days", Mark stated with a cheeky grin.

My eyes widened and a small smile of excitement crept on my face. "Ohhh what is it? Please tell me", I asked gleefully. But Mark simply drew his pinched thumb and index finger across his lips in a gesture to say that his lips were sealed.

We carried on talking for hours as usual. He still didn't give any clues as to what the big surprise was. I told him about my plan to take a break from videos for a while and he thought it was a good idea, assuring me that my followers would understand. The hours passed and it was getting late. I didn't want the call to end knowing that the silence through the apartment would grasp at me again. It was time to say goodbye.

"I probably won't speak to you for a couple of days now as I've got your surprise to sort out. But I'll speak to you real soon OK? Promise me you'll keep your chin up?", he asked with concern.

"Ok, I will", I replied sorrowfully.

"And the other chin?", Mark joked, his concerned features turning into a grin.

"Shut up, dickhead", I scolded while rolling my eyes.

Mark's expression returned to that of a more serious one before saying goodbye. "I love you... bye", he said with a wave.

"I love you too", I replied, trying not to well up with tears.

Then soon enough, the call was ended and Mark was gone.

Woooooooowww it has been literal years and I'm finally coming back to this!! I'm determined to finish it! I left everything on such a cliff-hanger and I've been meaning to finish it for so long. I have no idea if anyone will continue to read this now or if anyone even reads Septiplier stuff anymore but the desire for completion has been burning for a long time so here we are!