Reject Me Alpha, I Dare You

16. Conflict

Catalina's POV

I sat there my back against my door, conflict filled my heart. It ached from being away from Shane, opening my heart and soul to love again. I hurt so deeply that not even my wolf could calm the raging doubt and heartache. Deep inside a voice spoke, telling me it wasn't Shane's fault, that he had every right to ask that, but the pain of his doubt weighted heavy on my heart. This wound on my heart, that just began to heal, was once again ripped open for all to see. I sobbed softly against my knees, but I knew I wasn't the only one hurting... Even though the bond with Mason was still there, a new bond had formed with Shane. I could feel it through the bond that grew with each passing day, that Shane was hurting too.

With the words he said and the memories that came flowing back I had a lot to think about, I slowly forced myself up off the floor and made my way to my bed. Not caring I was dirty and had makeup streaks on my face, I flopped down onto my bed hopping by tomorrow I would awake and this would all just be a horrible dream...

By the time I finally fell asleep my aunt was knocking on my door, I groaned softly as she told my it was time for school. I sniffled as I rubbed my eyes, I went to the door and opened it slowly before asking her if I could stay home. One look at my face and she smiled sadly before she nodded and made me promise not to leave the house without letting her know. I nodded as I hugged her and told her thanks before retreating back into my room. I laid back down, turning my sound off of my phone before closing my eyes and trying to go back to sleep.

The light shining through my window woke me, I rubbed my sore eyes as I slowly got out of bed. I didn't bother looking in the mirror for I knew I looked terrible, I slowly made my way to my bathroom. I sighed looking up at the mirror above my sink before I grabbed a makeup remover wipe. My eyes were red and swollen from crying, massacre streaks covered my cheeks and my hair was a mess. After removing all the mess on my face I filled the bath before slipping into the warm water. I soaked in the tub for a while hopping that it would wash away the pain and the trouble my heart was having. But it did little to help me I sighed as I stood slowly stepping out, draining the water I dried off and dressed before going back to my bed. I glanced at my phone which laid forgetton since this morning, I debated whether I should check to see if I had any messages or not. I chewed on the side of my cheek as I picked my phone up, I sighed softly as I slowly turned it on and checked it, there were texts and missed calls, plus a bunch of voicemails most from Shane. I inhaled softly as I put the phone to my ear to listen to them, I closed my eyes for a moment. My heart pounding against my chest as I heard his voice on the first voicemail.

"Catalina listen please I-I know I messed up, I know your mad but please call me back... I-I call me soon ok."

My heart seemed to do flips and all it took was hearing his voice. I sighed as I deleted the messages after I listened to them, most of them were from last night, but there were two from this morning. I figured they would be the same as the last ten messages, but they were different....

"Honey please... I-I'm really sorry, please call me I-I need to hear your voice, I-I know I'm a complete idiot b-but I can't live without you, please just give me another chance I-I... I-i love you..."

He sounded so broken, so crushed and I caused this, my heart hurt more now than what it did last night. When the voicemail cut off I felt tears drip down onto my legs, I wiped them quickly before inhaling and saving the message and going to the last message but as soon as the message started I realized it wasn't from Shane. It was from my dad...,

"Hey sweetie, seems your busy I figured just to give you a call and see how your doing, I heard your doing good in school and have a bunch of new friends. Mandy told me your doing wonderful adjusting there, and that soon your graduate. She even told me there's a boy you like, I'm so happy that your doing well love. Hopefully you'll be able to come visit, but not right now anyway. Things here are getting a little out of hand with all the rogue sightings and the resent attacks, I fear the worst is a pawn us. If the attacks continue I fear that a war will break out and we are way unprepared. Uh well sorry sweetie hopefully next time I call we'll able to talk but I've taken up enough of your voicemail box space. I love you be safe talk to you soon."

I was on my feet before I realized it and moving towards the door, I swung the door open with enough force for it to bang against the wall loudly. I moved quickly towards the stairs, I needed to tell Aunt Mandy and uncle Charles about this. I moved quickly as I reached the stairs, I just began my descent when pain ripped through my body. I gasped loudly as I doubled over and lost my balance, I tried to catch myself but it was to late, I cried out as tumbled down the stairs. As I slammed and twisted down the stairs I heard my aunt yell out my name and as I slammed against the hardwood floor she rushed to me as I cried. My whole body hurts inside and out, before my vision faded I heard my aunt call for what I thought was an ambulance...