MY POETRY

I Lost A Soul

I know a girl
Gorgeous are her eyes
Diamond is her worth

I've known a person
She smiled all time bright
A hidden gem beneath the rocks

I've known an artist
With pure interest and ideas
She wrote theories on her shelves
And drew on her arms

I've known a creation who created upon herself
A creature wired to never know her self-worth
Pushed aside by the rocks
Driven in the storms of insecurity
Such a pity the crystal was never taught how to shine
Was only ever intrigued by a shrine

I've communicated with a human
Don't feel like I have the right to say I really knew her
I never dived in her ocean mind to pull her out
I played safe, kept my distance, and smiled
When her eyes shone bright, I believed
She never let me in, never plead
And so did I
Watched her at a distance
Just talked at  parties, a project or two
Never seen each other through
A little connection and that's it
Never expected her to split
Now, regret runs in my veins
Funny how well a person can hide their pain

I remember talking to someone
Maybe a ghost or a shadow in the wild
I'm losing my mind
I'm going insane
Never said goodbye
Though I felt it in her eyes
Maybe it was all a dream
Memories are faded
I guess time heals
It could've  been my imagination
For I like to create art
But not on my arms
Maybe I saw a shooting star fly
But even they come to a stop and eventually die
I hunted a few rabbits in the wild
When I could've fed them and saved their lives
What am I?
Who is she?
Dozens of bodies in the graveyard
Why am I here, again?
I don't even remember your face
I don't even remember your name

I'm sorry
I'll drop by flowers and an apology letter
The truth is I saw you through
But I'm not one for risks
I'm a jerk amongst the jerks
I looked at your smile
And tried to make believe
Ignoring the pain I saw underneath
Our type of people
We see each other through

I'm blind and I'm lost
Insane and lost my brain
I don't remember what I lost in my life
Nothing compares, nothing compares
I lost a soul

I lost a soul
Or did I lose two??
Oh, I lost a soul
It's... It's not a dream, is it?
It's not Disney, pixie dust, or make believe, is it?

But I can't yet believe
Does my mind process slow?
My brain just freezes in time
My eyes are dry
I forgot you
Time passed long enough
For me to remember who you were
Why were we friends
Why you were such a joy to see happy
Or as you pretended to be

I lost a soul I never knew
Good byes are not our thing
We vanish in thin air
Oh, we are amongst the best of the magicians
We don't perform tricks, we perform reality
And you did it
You vanished your soul
And I forgot it
The guilt, the pain, the regret, I lost it
Can't remember the last time I felt this free
When I'm out of tears
My eyes are dry forever
You're forever lost from my brain
Just like the soul I lost

A soul I lost
Gorgeous were her eyes
Diamond was her worth
Up in the sky
She uses pixie dust and makes believe
Like I could never
An angel that flies
Immortal for once, now she can never die
She paints the sky with her kisses
And smiles upon little kids, she got all her wishes
Her soul is alive
But I lost my chance to save her
At least now she's happy in the sky
I'll greet her someday
Ask her how she's doing
This time I'd communicate better
Wed be best friends forever
But I could never
I could never choose her path
Or climb her ladder
I could never make the people I love sadder
I don't need a staircase to heaven
Or drawings to reach me there
I'll meet you
Only when the time decides
And the ladder descends itself
I lost a soul
I won't murder my own
No tricks... Fairytale... Or an innocent child's play
I lost a soul