so close yet so far → tpn

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notes + song list

okay it finally ended! i feel so happy for this i've waited so long oof finally it's done!!!

mkay so i have something in mind and it's an alt ending for this book but i don't know if i should work on it, there's no twist but ig it's okay

ok random fact but did y'all know that the book series was originally supposed to be gender neutral? oof i know its obvious that i failed

andddd i kinda thought what if Ray n Norman stayed as allies of Isa and the demons, i bet Ray won't leave the tree for years oof 

okaaay let us move on to the book- so the fairytale dream uhhh so a garden of red flowers??? so that garden is actually how many kids Norman and Ray killed oop-

i bet everyone was so confused of the dream thingys so its kind of a stupid thing i thought of but 'what if the demons had some black magic and gave some to ppl they're allied with' so boom 

so y'all already know that Norman and Ray are working under Isa and the demons cuz of their wow magic abilities? except Emma cuz the two made a deal w Isa 'don't involve her cuz we're 81194 and 22194 we'll rip ur throats lol xd' and sooo yep

OKOK so the title of chapter 3 of this book actually has 2 possible meanings, one to be abt 42094 and the other having a literal meaning (like ye he got away) which is Ray

okay if y'all are confused i'm confused as well so the Leslie thing 'oh my Leslie when was the...' might've changed stuff lol idk if Ray has feels or Isabella just misinterpreted her son oh my

and idk if Ray considers 42094 as a best friend or just a friend as well as 42094 to Ray- why is everything so complicated wh-

okay y'all know the quotes of every chapter like they be stating random words right??? so the purpose of the quotes of Stunned by You is actually 42094 telling Norman what she really feels and the same goes to the quotes here in So Close Yet So Far anddd they're used as 'theme' for the chapter 

 Stunned by You

 - Faking cuz it was aching (the whole chapter 1 aka 42094 tryna conceal her feels)

 - Faking got it shaking (wow shook cuz im scared of the dream woooo)

 - But instead I was breaking (so all the faking and stuff got her to die oops)

So Close Yet So Far

 - Aching cuz I was faking (yup he's been hiding under a mask the whole time!!! woooo)

 - Faking got me taking (taking liiiiives wooooo scary)

 - But of course I was breaking (yep in the end 'wow field of flowers')

SONG LIST

these are just some songs that i suggest for the 2 books!!!

ghostin by Ariana Grande 

(ctto: sighrem)

- Ray's feels towards 42094

raindrops (an angel cried) by Ariana Grande

(ctto: Ariana Grande)

- Ray and Norman's (and probably 42094 to Ray's death) feels towards 42094 and/or the other kids.

Paper Hearts by Tori Kelly

(ctto: Brkshhit)

- Raaaaaay's feels for both 42094 and the kids 

Love Like You by Rebecca Sugar

(ctto: Phizzy)

- both Ray and 42094 feels towards each other (ok this was originally supposed to be a bg music for chapter 1 with Ray muffling his sobs but tables have turned)