The rest of the night flies by and soon enough we're back into our lengthy and quite unoriginal routine of school. The end of the semester is near and summer vacation is approaching, so the days creep by and with each day closer to school's end everyone seems more drained and out of energy from 10 months of late nights and early mornings. I'm in my art class on my lunch today, working on my finishing touches to my painting of the vase. I'm quietly working away but feel myself dissociate slightly and am lost in my thoughts.
I stand there, my painting in front of me, brush in hand, my only thoughts are that of this room, this school. I can't help but gloss over the past few months and everything I've experienced, everyone I've met, and everyone I've lost. I've made both happy memories alongside scarring ones. In this building alone, my entire thoughts had been turned completely upside down, and the things I least expected all happened for the better. I now have twelve new people in my life who care about me, even if it meant losing one person. Without these boys I'd never had realized how toxic Sujin was despite their presence. I owe a lot to them, especially to Kevin, Juhaknyeon and Chanhee. Those three have helped me the most, and I owe them a lot. I stand at my easel, all these thoughts surging through my head like how the screams at camp had resounded through the forest. Even then, I knew the boys had my back even if slightly unexpected.
I snap out of my daze, and continue to work on perfecting my painting for finals. I paint for twenty minutes more before packing up. I'm about to leave when I catch a glimpse of Kevin's painting again. It's gorgeous, and I'm caught breathless looking at the girl he's painted. It's hard to make out her face but you can tell that she's beautiful just at a glimpse. After staring, I turn and leave. I make my way to the cafeteria where the boys are all seated to eat my lunch. Once I arrive I sit in between Chanhee and Younghoon at the table. I smile happily at these dorks I came to like a lot, and eat my food. My mind is only filled with laughter and happiness, and for once I'm not tethered to thoughts of sadness and feelings of hurt. In this moment I allow myself to be care-free; laugh at the jokes, speak freely, and not pay attention to the jealousy that Sujin feels across the room. I feel the happiest I have in a while and why? Because I allowed myself to be happy and choose to live how I want instead of feeling sorry for myself all the time. We're teenagers and there's no use in crying anymore.
From now on I'm living without regrets and doing what I feel is right, even if that means confessing to my crush.
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Hey guys!!! So I'm very sorry about the late update I've been procrastinating honestly
(it's like 2a.m.) but I'm here to say thank you all so much for your support! When I opened this app today I saw that this story has reached 3k, and was eligible for watty's2019 and I'm so grateful to everyone who reads my work;-: I promise now that it's my vacation that I will update and even finish this story soon❤️❤️❤️
