My Lady, My Love.

The "date" 1/2 (part 5)

I wake up, do the usual routine and then walk over to Sarah's house and we take a stroll as we always do.

"So, today's the day huh?"

"Yes. And I really wish i didn't have to but my mother and father will be so upset"

We walk with some silence knowing we both have a lot on our mind, I look at Sarah and there it is again, my heart beats faster and my blood starts to pump more. She catches me staring, I would be surprised too cause I never even knew It was.

"Rose you look like you have a lot on your mind. Care to talk about it?"

I honestly don't know what to say, I don't know what I'm feeling....

"It's hard to explain, i just get these weird feelings at times. It's a bit indescribable"

"maybe it's that old James, after all you have to see him later"

It's not that but, i don't have a choice i can't talk to her a about what's really going on, and as i think about it.. The two men, maybe I should. Maybe she'd understand.

"It's not that actually, i saw something awfully weird last night and i couldn't get it off my mind. I saw two men last night sneaking back home but, they were holding hands and they..... kissed afterwards"

Right after that we both stop and she looks up at me

"Oh, two g-gay men? I heard it's...bad, you know. To love someone of the same sex"

Suddenly my heart beats faster now, a feeling of guilt. But why?

"Yes I know I've heard about it at church but why would they do such things?"

When i heard it was bad I- felt almost hurt, i know it's not good but. But how come I feel something bringing me back to those thoughts?

"I don't know why it's bad or why it's wrong but. All i know is it happened and... It's in the past"

her voice. It was, shaky? No no not that it was- almost and empathy tone as if... No she's right it's in the past and i need to stop. We finish our walk and i arrive home and decide I have to to get ready to see that devil man James.