Lucky With Time~ Perri Kiely

'come back,'

You know Kace, I honestly think it would be a good idea to get back into the whole dating thing, you heard what the nurse said yesterday, he may never be the same again, it would just make sense to-

How dare you, I rise up from the sofa, placing my mug back on the coffee table, How dare you speak of Perri asif hes dead,

Look, all Im saying is that he was meant to wake up three months ago and hes been laid there like a lemon ever since,

Is she for real? Malins supposed to be my best friend, but ever since her split from Mitch, she's always acted so bitter towards my relationship with Perri. Look, i get it must pretty suck that Mitch didnt want you, but Ive been sat by Perris side everyday since that day and that certainly isnt going to chance, I lost my job, I lost my friends, for Gods sake Malin i dropped out of school! And you know what, maybe it is taking time out of my life but I bet it will be goddamned worth it when he wakes up, By this point I wasn't even aware of the words spilling out of my mouth, I look at her, attempting to hold back her guilty tears, but she still said what she said.

Kacey look Im so-

Get out, I mumble under my breath, I need to be on my own right now. Better yet, I need to see Perri.

Please, Her voice starts to wobble and crack,

I said get out! Ive stopped caring, my main priority is Perri at the moment and I don't have time for anyone who cant get that into their head, even if it means losing my best friend These last few months have been hard without him I will admit, my Mum moved to California with her new partner for a fresh start, although i know it was to try and get away from the continuous memories of the house which is now in Ashes at the bottom of Percy street, being reconstructed into a flat, my own childhood, all my belongings, all my memories, gone. I moved in with Mitch, it helps having someone there who shares my heartache, but even though The diversity boys are supportive, I can't help but feel empty and alone without Perri here.

I'm sorry, she whispers as she places her mug carefully next to mine before picking up her bag. I hope hes with it, she mumbles coldy as she closes the door behind her. I wander towards the door of Perris room, I havent been staying there because I didn't want it to lose his smell, the sheets haven't been changed and the bed hasnt even been made, sometimes it feels like he really is gone. I slowly turn the handle on the door to be greeted with the smell of his almost faded fresh washing and aftershave. Closing the door behind me I crouch down and hold my head in my hands, sobbing and sobbing I gasp for air, come back, I cry as tears fall slowly down my cheek and onto the carpet,

Kacey? I hear the familiar voice of Mitchell as the door loses behind him, Kace? he repeats as he opens the door to find me, breaking my heart on the ground. Without saying another word, Jordan runs in and cradles me in his arms as Mitch holds back my hair,

Shhh its okay, Jordan rocks me gently backwards and forwards as Mitch hands me a cold glass of water, I know Kace, he reassures me, but I shouldnt be in jordans arms, I should be in Perris, and the thought of it forces the tears to roll more and more,

I j-ust want h-him back, I choke as Jordan continues to rest his head on top of mine,

So do we all Kace, so do we all,

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On the way to the hospital, my heart starts beating faster and faster, I havent been to see Perri in a few due to diversity's tour as I was filling Perris place, although I love dancing with the boys, I would much rather be stood at the side of the stage watching them perform. Mitch pulls up in the car park to pay, Im just going to wait here a few minutes if thats okay, you go on, I half smile, failing to unclip my seatbelt,

''you sure? He places his hand on my shoulder, I dont know how I would have managed if it wasnt for him, without replying I nod and he hops out of the car. I take a death breath and tap my fingers on the dashboard, what would I say to him? Sorry Perri I cry myself to sleep every night and laze around all day thinking about our memories? With my last deep breath, I collect myself and nervously step out of the car, making sure I lock it behind me.I'm here to visit P-Perri Kiely, I announce, approaching the reception,

No problem love, The familiar nurse warmly smiles at me, Im sure you know where he is,

My heart starts beating faster as I approach his room, Hey Ash, I smile as I bumped into him walking down Perris ward, Any change? I know the answer, but theres still a glimpse of hope, Pel always told me never to lose hope, but all i'm replied to with is a disheartened smile, and the answer was clear, Guess it's just another evening of talking to myself,

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Hey Pe- What. The. Where is he? I yell in despair, my heart drops to my feet, Where is he! I shout more sternly ,running out of the room in a panic,

Shh, its okay sweetheart hes been moved, down the bottom and to the left, One of the old nurse's smiles at me, clearly not witnessing the terror in my eyes,

W-what, is he okay? Where is he?

Like I said, down the bottom and to the left, Does she not realise how I feel? Hes been there for three months and now he's just gone has he got better? Has he got worse? One million questions racing around my mind at once and no one was answering any of them, picking up my feet I race down the ward, seeing I was the only person who seemed to be concerned at this moment in time.

But I didnt need to be, there he was.