I Can't Love you More Than This- A Niall Horan love story

Chapter 55- circles were going in circles

Niall and I took all our stuff to our new room at the end of the hall. "Wow!" I said looking around it. Niall laughed and flopped back on the bed "This is amazing" he said loudly. I climbed on the bed and started jumping up and down "My shirt is falling!" I said slowing down my jumping. Niall pulled my legs so I landed on the bed "Is that a bad thing?" "No?" Niall laughed and started tickling me. "Were gonna be so busy when we get back" Niall said looking at me, his elbow propping him up. I played with the collar of his shirt "Yeah it sucks but I'm happy for you guys" "I'll always have time for you though" I smiled up at him "You're the best"  

"I missed you guys!" I said hugging my babies as we all entered our house. Maura left for the airport and everyone came over to visit the twins. "Ok so I'm taking the kids and you guys are going for the promos and interview right?" I asked the boys. They nodded in agreement "Annie wants me to go somewhere I have the address in my bag" the boys left in one car and Di Dani El Ari the twins and I got into my car. "So where are we going?" Di asked. "Uh I have a consultation somewhere around here" I replied typing in the address. The GpS led me to the building. "Are you guys coming in?" I asked. "Yeah!" I took Liam out of his carseat and Dani got Ariel, we made our way into the building and Annie was there along with a lot of other people. "We want you to start a beauty line, like clothes perfume jewelry that type of stuff" my jaw dropped "Seriously" "Seriously" Annie said smiling. The girls were smiling ear to ear and gripping my arm. We all walked to another room that looked like a lab "Pick out some of your favorite scents then from there you can choose your perfume. The girls and I went around sniffing the different scents. "This smells really good" El said holding out one bottle. I smelled it and nodded "ok so I picked out strawberry, champagne, jasmine freesia, citrus, honey and whatever this is " I told the people. I picked some of them and we mixed it "I love it" I said smiling. I made the girls smell "I wanna call it Princess" "Aww" the girls cooed. "Why aw?" Annie asked "Thats what Niall calls me and thats what we call Ariel" I spent a few more hours going over stuff and thinking of names. "Okay see you soon" Annie said as I got in my car. "Oh my god congratulations Jordan" Di said smiling "Thanks" we drove to where the boys were having a signing and got out. Paul let us through and Niall ran over to me "Hey princess" "Hi Nialler" I chirped. He took Liam and sat back down at the table to show him off. I smiled and stood off to the side. A teenage girl came up "Jordan" she said talking my shoulder. I turned to her and she splashed solder thing cold in my face, it stung and dripped down my face . "You ugly slag I can't believe you got knocked up and did this to Niall" my eyes burned. "Jordan are-" Dani began. I cut her off by sticking my hand out then rushing away. I got in my car and sped off to our house. As I was leaving I heard screaming at me. People calling me horrible names and to kill myself. I stripped off my clothes and got into a burning hot shower. I slid down the wall of the shower into a heap on the floor. I grabbed the razor beside me and popped one of the blades out. I pressed it against my forearm and winced as I made a small incision. I dropped the blade and let the blood spread in the water. "Oww mother-!" I screamed as the pain seared. I climbed out of the shower and pressed a towel to my cut. I held it there until it stopped, I pulled on yoga shorts and a belly shirt. I walked into the bathroom and tried finding a bandaid to cover my cut. I heard footsteps and then a loud voice "Jordan!" Niall called. I rushed out to our bedroom "Why did you leave? You Just left Liam and Ariel with no warning" "Sorry" "It's ok, we're going out to dinner" I went back into the bathroom and walked back confused "where's my makeup stuff?" "You don't need it" "Where is it?" "Hidden" I flopped onto the bed "I look horrible without it!" "What is that?" Niall asked grabbing my arm. I winced in pain "Your hurting me Niall!" I said trying to pull my arm back "What is in your arm?" he asked loosening his grip. "A cut" "You promised me" he said roughly letting go causing me to stumble back on the bed. "You promised you would never cut!" Niall said loudly before slamming the door shut. He opened it again "If you felt like you need to harm yourself you couldve talked to me!" he slammed the door shut again and it slowly opened "You have me and our babies. Why would you hurt yourself intentionally" warm tears flowed my face an I sobbed "I'm sorry" I said trying to hug Niall. He shrugged me off and walked behind me "Please forgive me! People were making me feel like shit and I couldnt help it!" "But you have me! You could have talked to me instead of doing THAT!... What if you hit a vein and I didn't come home. You could've died and I wouldn't be able to go on without you. Your my life" "Sometimes I wonder why you even love me at all. I'm sorry" "Why wouldn't I love you?" I began pacing back and forth "This girl, she came up and splashing some burning thing in my face and as I left everyone was just screaming horrible things at me and I couldn't handle it. Something just came over me and I regretted it right away. I don't feel like I'm good enough for you and everyday i just hope i dont do something to make you leave" I cried. Niall pulled me back on the bed, I was in his lap and his arms were tightly wrapped around me. "It's ok. I'm sorry about all those people just don't listen. I miss the carefree Jordan who didn't care what the fans said" "I always cared though, I tried not to show it though so you wouldnt think I was weak" Niall took my arm and kissed the cut. He scooped me up and sat me on our bathroom counter "This may hurt" he said putting something on it. "it'll prevent a scar" then he put a spongebob bandage on it and kissed it again. "Please promise me that you'll never ever cut again" "I'm promise" "I promise I'll never leave" Niall said. I gave a sad smile and Niall opened his arms. I wrapped my legs around his waist and my arms around his Neck. He carried me into our bed room and laid on the bed. "I'm sorry" I mumbled over and over again. Niall stroked my hair and pressed his lips to my forehead "Just don't do stuff like this... Ever. I don't want a risk loosing you" I nodded "I wont" "Did you bring Liam and Ariel home?" "Yeah they're in their cribs now" "Are we still going out to dinner?" "No how about we stay in and watch movies?" Niall suggested. I smiled "Sounds good" Niall scooped me up and ran downstairs, I was giggling madly. "God your so freaking cute" Niall said. I blushed and hid my face in his chest "What movie are we gonna watch?" Niall asked. "Grease?" I suggested. Niall nodded "I just put the pizza in the oven so it should be ready soon" I cuddled up against Nialls side and watched the movie. After a few minutes Niall and I were up dancing and singing, Niall spinning me around.

I heard Ariel crying so I ran upstairs and picked her up "What's wrong princess?" Liam was still sleeping so I crept out of the room and back downstairs. "You wanna see Daddy?" I asked as Niall smiled when he saw us. I carefully handed her off "Oh so today we went to this place and Annie was there with a bunch of people and... They asked if I wanted to start my own beauty line! I made a perfume and I'll have a clothing and makeup line" "That's amazing! Congratulations! What's it called?" "Well the perfume is called Princess and I don't know what I'm gonna call the whole line" Niall smiled "Perfectly Unique.Just like you" I kissed his cheek "Thank you" "No problem" I looked at Ariel who was drooling all over Niall "Awww Ariel your so adorable" I said in a baby voice. Niall laughed "You sound like a little kid when you talk like that" Niall said to me "Mommy is crazy" "And I sound like a little kid?" Niall laughed and nodded. "Wanna do a twitcam?" Niall asked turning on the computer. "Sure. Im gonna grab Liam" I went upstairs and got Liam. "There she is" I heard Niall say. I smiled and sat next to him on the couch. "So we just got back from a trip to Las Vegas where we celebrated Jordans 21st birthday" "It was so fun. Thank you so much everyone who made it happened and came to the party" "Did you ever open your presents" I shook my head "Lets open them!" Niall said picking up Ariel, while I took Liam. We turned the camera towards my pile of presents. "Okay so this is from Paul and Clodaghanne. Aww thank you guys" I said opening the box, inside was an old fashioned polaroid camera. I opened all of my other presents which included Chanel perfume, jewlelry and stuff that poeple knew I loved, even food. Someone got me kitty crocheted headphones. After a while we turned off the twitcam and put the twins to bed. I sat on our bed and Niall walked out of the bathroom and hugged me tight.