Goodguyfitz x Reader || Psycotic

0.1 ☀︎

a/n: wow after so long here's the actual first part lmao SORRY sksksksk
⚠️trigger warning: mental and physical abuse ⚠️
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Your POV:

i never really had friends. i mean, i used to. but they are kinda, left. but it wasn't their fault, it was mine. i've been with the same guy for the past 3 years, and he doesn't exactly like me having you know, any other people in my life. i've lost many friends because he thought they were either bad influences, liked me, or were taking me away from him.

needless to say, he gets a bit jealous.

to take up time, when he's not home, and to be less lonely i tend to play video games. i've always loved them. but alex, he doesn't really care for them either. as long as i don't play on them while he's home, then i'm fine. but i've met all sorts of people on games before. almost been friends with some of them too. but he always gets in the way. it's because he loves me, right?

i dont always listen to his rules, though.

Flashback to a few months ago

"tonight, i'm going to play some cs go, i think" i think to myself and smile. i honestly love this game a lot, and the people who play it are usually pretty cool.

i started to load into the map, when i accidentally joined into an already existing conversation.

"seriously, fuck off cunt!" a thick, australian accent screams. i cringe a bit at the volume, but giggle.
"who the fuck just laughed?" some other guy said "because it didn't sound like any of you guys."
"fitz, don't be fucking stupid. there's obviously another person here." another dude stated. the guy who i presume to be "fitz" scoffs.
"oi cunt, fucking say something won't ya" the original guy, i think, states.
"oh- i- um. hi?" i stutter a bit, shocked by the sudden attention.
"oh no, let me guess, it's a fan" yet another guy says, with a hint of annoyance in his voice.
"i'm sorry, but what would i be a fan of you for?" i scoff.
"oops, guess fucking not" the same guy says, but instead he laughs after.
"so, what's your name?" the "fitz" guy asks.
"oh um, y/n..." i pause "what about y'all?"
"well i'm fitz aka cam, and the rest of the guys will say theirs." he laughs and the others groan.

i soon learn that their names are cam, mason, toby, and jay. i actually hit it off really well with them. we had very similar senses of humor, which i was reluctant to show at first. alex never really cared for it, so i didn't crack jokes to much. but with them, it was natural. i played or talked with all of them for about 2 hours, but then they slowly began to disconnect. and it was only cam, mason, and i left. that's when i heard the door to the office open, and alex walk in.

"babe? what the fuck are you doing?" he calls to me.
"oh um, playing some counter strike with some people i met online" i say reluctantly.
"hey y/n, who's that?" cam calls out loud enough that alex hears him. mason said something too, but i saw the look on his face so i was scared and wasn't listening.
"oh so it's a guy too? and more than one? am i just not good enough for you, y/n?" he steps closer and i start to move my chair back the closer he gets.
"n-no alex. you are" i stutter out. at this point, mason and cam have gone quiet. i assume they had heard, and didn't wanna make it works.
alex then reaches over and grabs the headphones right off my head, grabbing some of my hair with it too.
"ow alex that fucking hurt!" i yell out before he hit me across the face. it wasn't hard, but it still hurt and he should've never put hands on me. i lost all confidence and cowered.
"whoever the fuck you are, if i ever catch you talking to my girlfriend ever again, you'll regret it." he rambled on for a bit. but through his anger, he didn't notice the cam had requested me on discord. he had gotten it from an earlier conversation and was planning on adding it later. i sighed of relief, knowing i hadn't sacred him off yet. eventually, alex threw the headphones and grabbed me by the wrist. he dragged me out of the office and into the room, where we argued all night.

the next morning i accepted the request from fitz, but only after alex had left for the day. i got an instant message from him.

goodguyfitz
hey. you okay?

i smiled at his concern.

y/d/n (your discord name)
yeah. i'm alright.
thanks for checking on me cammy boy 🤠

goodguyfitz
always shorty 🤠
lemme know if you need anything.

i smiled, it's nice to know someone cares.

Flashback over

he, his group of friends, and i have been talking ever since. and he didn't know about it. we managed to keep that under wraps.

honestly, it wouldn't matter too much soon anyways.