😈: im boreddddd
Carmen♡: i thought i blocked you angelina
😈: how'd you know it was me??
Carmen♡: well its pretty obvious. what other kid from our school is gonna put ' 😈' as their name?
😈: only me
Carmen♡: see, ur not that sneaky.
😈: you must be pretty sneaky. ur talking to me. ;)
Carmen♡: oh yeah. Gtg.
😈: shut up, i know u like talking to me. don't lie carmen. lying makes u go to hell.
😈: hey, r u busy?
Carmen♡: ...why?
😈: no reason. maybe we could sneak away to the park.
Carmen♡: definitely not.
😈: aww why not sweetheart?
Carmen♡: bc ur insane. and don't call me that.
😈: fine, i won't bother u anymore if u come with me. deal?
Carmen♡: yeah no. i've lived so far with u bothering me, im not going to sneak out and meet u at the park just to make u stop.
😈: so u don't want me to stop?
Carmen♡: no, i do, im just not going to see u.
😈: oh. pls?
Carmen♡: why should i?
😈: bc ur so boringgg. u need some fun in ur life.
Carmen♡: thats what my friends are for. nice try.
😈: just do it, it'll be fun ;)
Carmen♡: still no
😈:what do i have to do to make u go?
Carmen♡: stop being so annoying. and stop flirting with me, im not a faggot like u.
😈: alright.
Carmen♡: promise?
😈:sure. and that's as close to a promise as u'll ever get from me.
Carmen♡: ugh, i guess i'll see u there.
😈: don't sound so excited
Carmen♡: shut up
😈: well if i can't annoy u after today, i might as well get it in now.
Carmen♡: ugh im making a mistake
-☆
"hey" i called at carmen as i saw her walking towards the dark playground. she looked uncomfortable to say the least.
"yeah whatever. why am i here?" she asked. she was obviously annoyed that she had to be here. i don't blame her though.
"im lonely" i said.
"don't you have any other friends?" she said in a judgy tone.
"just one actually."
"oh i didn't mean to-"
"yeah forget about it," i said shaking my head.
i was sitting on a cold plastic swing, and she was standing in front of me. she had baby blue dress on, but it was so dark that it was hard to make out if that was the actual color or not.
"sit down," i gestured to the empty swing next to me.
she gave a look that screams 'seriously?! god, what has my life come to?'
we stayed there for a moment in silence; neither one wanting to say anything first.
"do you come here by yourself a lot?" Carmen barely managed to get out.
"Yeah, whenever I get sick of being home. Which is a lot actually,"
"Oh really, why?"
"Because i just don't fit in in this entire town. everything and everyone is all so perfect except for me. im gay and i have colored hair, they must all assume that i worship the devil or something," i said, kicking the woodchips under my feet "but i don't blame them for thinking that,"
Ok, I don't worship the devil, or anyone for that matter, but i may have said that just to scare her.
"Look, Angelina, if u made me come here to try to turn me gay or something, it's not gonna work," she said with accusing eyes.
"I can't turn you gay, but I can make you realize that you're gay,"
"You can't" she said with an emphasis on the you.
"You don't know that yet"
"I have a boyfriend," she said defensively
"That can be taken care of," i responded
"What?!" She said worried
"Im not gonna kill him, don't get all worked up over something that isn't gonna happen,"
"You're terrible,"
"Thanks, i try"
"And actually, i just want to be your friend, thats why i made you come here," i added
"Oh, um, well we uh... we can't be friends," carmen said, embarrassed.
"Why not?" I asked, confused.
"Because, you got a bad reputation and I can't be seen with you at school, because im popular and this could ruin me,"
"Well what about outside of school?"
"Well... technically but i don't think its a good idea. What if someone catches us?"
"Then we run away" i joked
"Well i don't think its that serious that we'd need to leave,"
"See, if it's not that serious then we can totally be friends,"
" I don't see why you wanna be my friend, but sure.. i guess we can be 'friends'," carmen said reluctantly.
"You'll see why later," I said
"Well im gonna go..." she said standing up from the childs swing.
"Alright im gonna stay here, bye carmen,"
"Bye angelina,"
♡
What. Just. Happened.
I don't wanna be friends with her, but i felt bad for her, she's only got one friend.
Ugh what am i getting myself into? I swear, if she tries any gay 'stuff' im gonna kill her.
Because I am not gay.
When i was older - Billie Eilish
