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oh no. nope, it's not possible, this is not happening. this is not happening to me! there is absolutely no way that i care about angel! and there is definitely no way that im gay for her!
Carmen, stop thinking that word! what am i doing? im gonna get killed by father haden. or my mother. no...pfft, im not gay, i have a boyfriend duh. and i love him more than anything, well besides God. right? yeah im not gay. but then why do i have to keep telling myself that? no. being gay is a sin and i am not a sinner. im not a gay sinner like Angel.
well maybe a little. NO! stop that Carmen! you are not gay! or am i? No! no i am not!
ok maybe i am... ugh.
Bellyache - Billie Eilish
