SOLITARY ( COMPLETE)

Memories

Memories can be both beautiful and painful. But why do my memories just brings me pain and agony?

Baek was in fifth grade at that time, his aunt was staying at their house. Her aunt loved baekjoon a lot but she never spared a glance on baekhyun, she never gave him any attention so baekyun was okay with her. She never gave any shit to baekhyun and he use to love that, neither being loved and most importantly never being looked down on.

Until now.

Baekhyun mother and father was not at home and baekhun was with their aunt,  so baekhyun was alone and he decided to climb the tree to reach their rooftop so that he can stay there and be happy for the time being. He was enjoying his time there, he didnt realise he was there for two hours already.

He heard his name being called, he came down to the wall and was standing there. Baekhyun had minor acrophobia so when his aunt came out he was not able to jump from the wall and asked her to help him. She did help him and then went inside to his brother.

When his brother left to play outside , she came to baek, he expression were a combination of anger, disgust and hatred. Baekhyun was not at all scared but knew that something bad will happen.

"I   ....now understand why my sister hates you, she disgust you, my whole family do the same thing but I thought maybe they were wrong but you are a piece of shit.  I don't know why my sister even keeps you, she should have aborted you but you parasite was their to kill her. She should have killed you after your birth. I feel pity for her to have a useless kid like you.  If i would have been in her place i would have killed you long before.

You tried to hide to scare me, so that you can get all the attention. Such a burden. You should have died before."

And then she left.

Baekhyun was there standing , crying his heart out "Why God! why you gave me this life, no one wants me, mother hates me, I have tried my best to do everything that will make her happy but I'm not enough. God please kill me. I don't want to live anymore."

He was in fifth grade when he thought of suicide.

"A fifth grade kid wants to die, we can't even imagine how he was living
t

hat he decided to give upon living "

PRESENT

Baekhyu  woke up after just two hour of sleep, he felt someone's hand on his waist, he moved to look at the individual and it was his newly wedded  husband. He didnt felt anything. He knew he will also tell him the same thing sooner or later.

"You are useless, worthless and burden on me, on this earth, it's better if you die"

Baekhyun kept all his thoughts aside and got up, it was 3 in the morning. Baekhyun have been suffering from insomnia for a long time and now he himself don't remember when it all started.

He decided to get freshen up. After taking a bath and getting ready, he decided to go to the garden, that was just next to their bed room. He wore his white t-shirt and jumpers. He never liked to see his face in mirror, he just hates it.