ʳᵒᵒᵐᵐᵃᵗᵉˢ ( jack gilinsky )

40 - vampire diaries

song mood for this chapter-
slow dancing in the dark - joji

jack's pov

i've held mia in comfortable silence for what felt like hours. we stayed outside on the balcony until the sky turned pitch black.

"do you remember when we first met?" she mutters out of the blue.

i look down at her. "yeah, jamie was giving me um..."

"top." she answers for me, smirking with her head on my chest, causing me to chuckle.

"that's so fucking weird. and to think, i didn't even know you'd be the one i'd crush on." i smile to myself.

"the tables have turned." she looks at me for the first time since we've sat down and gives me a small smile, despite her eyes being red and puffy from crying.

"you went from calling me douche to daddy, hm?" i nudge her and she finally giggles.

she sits up from my embrace and brings her knees to her chest. she gazes up at the stars and i can tell there's a lot on her mind.

"i'm sorry about my mom." she mutters.

"what— don't apologize for your parents, mia. you aren't them." i reply and she stays quiet.

"i wish you didn't see that. my relationship with her is fucking embarassing."

"hey, no it's not. there's nothing to be embarrassed about... not in front of me. you can tell me anything. i never want you to feel like you can't." i state.

"it's not that i don't want to it's just—" her voice begins to shake, "everything about my life was so messed up. i don't want to lay all of my fucked up baggage on you. that would be selfish of me."

i frown, "are you kidding? i'm always going to be here for you no matter what. your shit is my shit too, so please don't push me away. tell me everything and we can deal with this together, okay?" i cup her jaw so that she's looking at me.

"okay." she says softly. "i'm surprised that you've never asked me about my parents. i never mention them."

"i... didn't want to pry." i look at her. "your mom looks so young."

"she is. she had me when she was 16. she didn't want to keep me but my grandparents made her. she blames me for ruining her life." she scoffs.

"that's not true. you're the best person i've ever met." i furrow my eyebrows.

"heh, she definitely would not agree. that bitch despises me."

"what about your dad?" i ask.

"oh um, he was at work most of the time. i don't know where he is now, though. he left us when i was about 10. he was constantly fighting with my mom."

i frown. i can't even imagine what that's like.

"my mom used to get drunk out of her mind every other day. and i'd be the one to clean her up and cover her from my dad," she sighs, "one morning i woke up and he was gone. no note or nothing."