Saved (Adopted by Brendon Urie)

#15

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Anna's POV

Everyone had just finished soundcheck for the first show so I was just sitting on the edge of the stage, my feet dangling over the edge.

I felt so shit after the public knew about me. Everyone kept trying to cheer me up but it wasn't really working. I knew Brendon and Tyler were watching me with huge caution, like they were certain I was going to relapse or something.

"Yo, Anna" someone said from behind me.
"Oh hi Pete"
He sat down next to me.
"You good?" He questioned
"Yep" I said while nodding my head, I wanted him to believe my lie but...
"Really? I am going to be real, I don't believe you. I've seen the comments and even though I know you gave your phone to Ty, I know that's all you're thinking"

I just sat there, staring into the empty arena, for I don't even know how long.
"No," I whispered so quietly after what seemed like forever, "I'm not ok. Their words are planted in my brain and then all I can think is; do Brendon and Sarah really want me? Am I good enough? Should I just...die?" I say the last word almost inaudible, I start tearing up.

Pete hugs me.
"No. Don't you dare even think those things. I know it's hard but don't think that. Brendon and Sarah both love you so much you can't even imagine, you are more than enough you are amazing, gorgeous, sweet, smart the list goes on. Finally no fucking way should you die. Don't think that. Please. Just talk to me, Brendon, Tyler, someone. So many people love you. Ok?"

I nodded my head.
"You know you nod your head a lot?" Pete says
I laugh
"Yea. That's what Zack said when I first met him"
He laughs
"Want to play something? Get your mind off things?"
"Yes please Pete. I'd actually really like that. A lot."

We get up and I grab Brendon's guitar and he grabs his bass, they were already set up so I didn't need to grab mine.
"What do you want to play?" He asks.
"I don't know" I tell him.
He starts playing a very familiar tune and I join in.

I think I got too many memories getting in the way of me
I'm 'bout to go Tonya Harding on the whole world's knee
And I'm stuck, night-vision
So stuck night-vision
But I come to life, come to life
Some princes don't become kings
Even at the best times I'm out of my mind
You only get what you grieve
Are you smelling that shit?
Are you smelling that shit?

I get really energetic and happier than I had been for a while so I just shout

Eau de résistance

As loud as I possibly can

The only thing that's ever stopping me is me, hey
The only thing that's ever stopping me is me, hey
I testify if I die in my sleep
Then know that my life was just a killer dream, yeah

I start jumping around the stage after screaming the chorus.

Seems like the whole damn world went and lost its mind
And all my childhood heroes have fallen off or died
Fake tears, we are living fake tears
But the alcohol never lies, never lies
Some princes don't become kings
Even at the best times I'm out of my mind
You only get what you grieve
Are you smelling that shit?
Are you smelling that shit?

Eau de résistance
The only thing that's ever stopping me is me, hey
The only thing that's ever stopping me is me, hey
I testify if I die in my sleep
Then know that my life was just a killer dream, yeah
Then know that my life was just a killer dream, yeah
I testify
I testify
Are you smelling that shit?
Eau de résistance
Hey
Hey
Hey

Some princes don't become kings
Even at the best of times I'm out of my mind
You only get what you grieve
Are you smelling that shit?
Are you smelling that shit?

The only thing that's ever stopping me is me, hey
The only thing that's ever stopping me is me, hey
I testify if I die in my sleep
Then know that my life was just a killer dream, yeah
Then know that my life was just a killer dream, yeah
Are you smelling that shit?

Eau de résistance

I scream the last phrase and look at Pete. He's crying from laughter.

Pete's POV

We had all just finished soundcheck and we were going to head to the buses when I saw Anna sitting on the edge of stage. I knew that the fans comments were hurting her.
"Pete you coming?" Ryan calls out.
"Yea just a second"
I walk up to Anna and sit next to her.

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"Want to play something? Get your mind off things?"
"Yes please"
We get up and I grab my bass while she gets Brendon's guitar.
What do you want to play?" I ask.
"I don't know"

I start playing and she recognises the song and starts singing along. She get really enthusiastic at the chorus, jumping around the stage screaming Eau de résistance! and I fucking love it. I start crying from laughing. She seemed so happy and I didn't want that taken away from her. Dealing with those thoughts is something no one should have to deal with.

"Thanks Pete" she smiles.
"All good kiddo, I know how great music can be"
She nods
"I loved doing that so much"
"Anytime"

I hug her and we go back to the buses and the rest of the group.

"Dally!" She shouts and jumps on the tall man.
He laughs
"Well I see someone is chirpy"
She looks over at me and nods
"Yep"