MEMORIES AND PLUMS// Bucky Barnes FanFic

Part 29

I got to Bucky's apartment once I completed the list of groceries. I found him sitting on his bed and writing something on his journal.

"Oh my god! I forgot your plums" I exclaimed. He glanced at me and smiled, put his journal down and brought himself towards me.

"Don't worry, I'll go buy tomorrow" I gave him a sly smile.

"I bought something for us so you can eat again"

"That's for later, doll. I'm fine" he held my hand before pulling me towards his bed. We both sat there, his knowing eyes were too deep to read.

"Bucky....." I started but he cut me off.

"I want to tell you something"

I gulped and nodded. "What is it?"

"For months of spending it with you, I haven't been in trouble that was related to me. And I couldn't help myself from thinking that all is fixed, nothing could go wrong again. But I am not controlling my fate, doll. I became an assassin, to kill people. Why did you not even feared me? What if one day, I could hurt you" this broke my heart. Has he not trusted me all along? What happened with his promises?

"Bucky, I knew deep within, that you are still the man who couldn't even hurt an innocent being. You were just forced then, a victim. And from that day that you saved me, you gave up yourself from being a murderer and instead, you saved a life. You saved me, Bucky" I held his metal arm and pressed in on my cheek. "And I know, you will never hurt me. I've given you my trust"

Having a thought of what Steve and I talked about, I could hurt Bucky from doing this. And will hurt myself too, big time. I swore to never tell Bucky about it, Steve asked me to.

"I trust you more than you do, Hayley. No matter what happens, be safe always" he tucked some strands of hair behind my ear. "You will always be my best girl"

His eyes are glistening but he tried holding it back.

Why does it feel that he knows my plan? Steve's plan? Does he know?

"Bucky" tears finally rolled down my face. I held his hand tighter and I stayed there resting it over my cheek. If I let go, I wouldn't see him again. And the thought kills me. "I can't lose you. Not when everyone turns their back on me. You stayed. You are the only person that I have. I can't afford losing you" I don't care if I look so desperate, but when it comes to him, I'd go crazy.

"Hush, now. It'll be okay. I'm with you, doll. I'm staying" he pulled me into a tight embrace and rested his chin above my head. I continued sobbing as I pressed myself closer to him, wrapping my arms around his body.

"Promise me, that whatever happens, you'll still remember me. Promise me, Bucky" I whispered.

"Look at me" he said and I obeyed. He's smiling but the pain inside me didn't fade away, and it grew even more painful. There will be chances that I will never gonna see his smile again. "You will always have a memory in me 'til the end of the line. I love you"

And I love you more than my existing life.

"I love you more than anything"

Goodbye, Bucky.