but it's better if you do [COMPLETED]

eight

i showed my id to the bouncer and he let me in right away. as i walked in, i saw that pete wasn't working at the bar, but mikey was sitting there. i decided to go talk to him before i set out on my journey for brendon.

"hey, mikey."

"oh, hi ryan."

"pete's not working today, eh?"

"nah, but lynn's here and she's good company, so i'm doing alright," he answered, looking at the blonde girl pouring pinnacle vodka into a glass.

"have you seen brendon around?"

he gave me a face that i did not like the demeanor of: a slight cringe.

"i saw him go off with some other tall, blondish dude that i didn't recognize at all. i'm not sure exactly where they are, but i have a feeling that it's not somewhere innocent."

as soon as mikey finished stating his reply, brendon walked out of the hallway where the back rooms are with a man who fitted mikey's description. brendon caught my eye and winked at me, but i was not amused. i practically stormed out of the club and got into my car without hesitation. once i arrived home, i let it all out. angry tears were streaming down my face and i wasn't even sure why. he's a fucking stripper, why am i mad that he probably had sex with someone else?

since my emotions were taking over, i decided to write a little bit. whenever i get angry or extremely sad, that's what i do to, basically, cope. i retrieved my notebook and a pen and started immediately writing.

don't wait around for love,
you're not what he's thinking of
when he's with the other boy

i started brainstorming and the words flowed into the paper almost scarily fast.

don't bother waiting up 'cause he,
he's not where he's supposed to be
when he's with the other boy

the emotions that i was feeling were very complex. it was a combination of anger, sorrow, disappointment, betrayal, and rejection. i don't even know what you would call all of those things jumbled into one. all i know is that it is not the best feeling in the world. in my opinion, it is the worst mixture i've felt in a while.

after about five minutes, i saw that brendon had texted me.

brendon: hey are u ok? i saw that you ran out of there pretty fast :(((

me: who was that tall guy

brendon: oh, you mean dallon? he's a new worker and i was showing him around!! nothing happened between us, i promise! you're the only person i want with me baby😉

me: meet you there in ten?

brendon: i'll be waiting

nevermind, i'm feeling pretty good all of a sudden.

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IM SO SORRY I HAVENT UPDATED SINCE JULY 9 OR SUM BUT HERE YOU GO SIS