I get out of the shower and head to my room. I put on some jogging pants and a sweater, I don't want my father or brother finding out that I self harm. Oh god, who knows what would happen if they found out. I would probably be put in a mental hospital.
I jog down the stairs and go In the kitchen, I want food. I'm really hungry, I haven't eaten since lunch. So three hours ago. I open the fridge and look through everything we have. I finally spot my long lost love. Pizza. I love pizza so much. I grab a slice and heat it up in the microwave.
"What the hell is this?!?"
I hear a voice say behind me. Whoever it is sounds angry. I spin around to see my dad. He looks pissed off, that's just great. I look at his hand to see a piece of paper. Crap.. That's my test from yesterday. I kinda failed that test...
"I'm sorry dad, I didn't study"
I say as I back away. He walks closer to me.
"You didn't study?! What the hell is wrong with you! You should be more like your brother"
"I-I'm sorry"
I stutter. I back up into the wall, oh no, where do I go now. My father walks up to me and punches me straight in the face, which makes me drop my pizza. Thankfully it was on a napkin and not a plate.
"Why are you such a failure"
He says as he punches me in the stomach then walks away. I fall to the ground and hold on to my stomach. Why does this have to happen why can't I have a nice dad that loves me? Why can't I have a nice life for once?
After awhile of sitting there, when I feel a bit better i stand up and get my pizza. I slowly walk up the stairs to my room. It hurts a little to walk. But I'm used to it by now. I reach my room and head for my bed, but making sure I lock my door behind me. I plop down on my bed and start to eat my pizza.
As I eat I get lost in my thoughts. I can't help but wonder whats going to happen tomorrow, what the days gonna bring. How much pain I will feel, and how much I will smile. Maybe for once I will smile. Maybe one day. As I think, I start to think about everything that has happened in my life. My eyes start to water as the negative thoughts enter my mind. Why? I ask myself.
Why?
