FRIENDS 2: HUANG RENJUN

36 | it's over

renjun

"haneul please let me explain!" i shouted, running after her for almost a minute, but she finally stopped and got tired. i stopped as well, in front of her and gasped for air. "haneul, i have to tell you the truth." i exhaled.

"yeah, the truth is you love her not me!" she cried hysterically, sobbing and it was painful to see her like this, because i was the one that made her cry and it's heart breaking.

her crying was both ferocious and noisy. she blinked briny tears from bloodshot eyes, her thick lashes stuck together in clumps as if she'd been swimming. the tears made wet tracks down her face and dripped from his stubbled, wobbling chin. clear watery snot streaked from her flaring nostrils down her red mottled skin to her open quivering lips. her hands open and closed, rhythmically clenching as if there could be some violent solution to this pain if only she could find it.

"i'm sorry." i apologized. "but it's true... she's the one i like, not you." i spoke the truth, making more tears brim down her eyes. "it was awful of me to do this, to ask you to be mine when i clearly didn't like you. you see mayumi confessed but i didn't get to say that i felt the same way. so i decided to come to you, because i thought sooner or later i will learn to fall in love with you.... bit it didn't succeed." i sighed, pursing my lips and looking inside haneul's eyes that were in pain.

"i really wanted to say it sooner, but couldn't. please understand me haneul." i plead, breathing heavily and felt tensed.

"so after all we've been through, everything was nothing but fake? you didn't love me, the kisses on the cheeks, smiles, laughs and love were all fake?" she cried. "how could you renjun? it was fine for me if you could've said it sooner, it's less painful but telling me now is very painful! just the fact that i realized everything was fake! i love you a lot renjun, i believed you loved me back but you didn't. i just hoped you could've told me sooner!" she sobbed louder, sniffing and rubbing off the tears that non stop flooded down her red eyes.

"fine." she wiped her tears away. "i'll break up with you renjun, but remember this." she paused and took a step closer. "i'll never forgive you, and promise me you wouldn't do something like this to other girls anymore, vow me." she repeated. "i promise." i gulped.

"it's the truth and i can't do anything about it. but at least you told me the truth, thank you." she smiled weakly, wiping off her tears.

"at least i've learned something from it." she said making me tensed. "that i deserve better." she finished her sentence, sighing and wiped her tears as she walked away.

"that's correct." i cooed weakly.

i watched her walk away, fast while quietly sobbing which caused my heart to break into small pieces. i regret doing that to her, she didn't deserve it but at least it's now over.

note: this is kinda bad but ehhhh?