The Ideal NRI Couple mistake

18 Neil

Neil

Somewhere around 1 at night I gave up. I knew she could hear me. What I had done last night might have shattered her. But I believed she had a part to play in it. Getting me provoked was not the best of her ideas. I was scared that one day Ishani will realise that I was not enough for her and last night felt exactly like that. Her talking to Nishant scared me, her dressing, even more and then that cute act. All I could think yesterday was about how we both ended up sleeping with each other when we were drunk would that happen again if Ishani drank with someone else? Or maybe if the first time around we never had sex, would she have married me?

She liked to dress up her new perfectly toned body but there was a limit my male indian ego could allow her to wear. I might be a bit wrong last night but my fears were real. I was sure she was planning on leaving me when I went to work tomorrow and that's when my tears started to flow. "What have you done Ishani? Why me? Why us?" I cried and yelled at her door and walked back till mine. I tried to remember our simplest time when all we did was talk in the balcony. Yesterday was a disaster. "Ish please.." and I broke down. I sat on the floor sobbing my heart out. I felt ashamed of my tears after all no Indian guy would ever cry about their life partner!

But this was Ishani, my Ish, the girl I had always dreamt about. The girl of my dreams who was mine by some massive stroke of good luck and I did not want to screw this up ever. "Ishani come on, please come out and we will discuss this like adults" I half cried, half yelled. I sat there miserably crying with my hands covering my face to make sure she wouldn't hear me. I heard her door open and out walked a very disheveled and sad Ishani. Her face was swollen probably from crying. I got up to clear things out, " Ish I'm so sorry. I know that even sorry is a small word for what happened."

She liked at me with eyes so cold that it broke my heart and then she confirmed my biggest fears, "Neil I am going back home. I think we both need some space." And that's when I understood what actual heart break was. I couldn't breathe. I just nodded. Afterall what my Ishani wants my Ishani gets! But she will be back I would have to make sure.