The Chase | Gruvia Fanfiction

Twenty Nine

Chapter 29

Where I'll Find You

The reception took place by the beach, it what Lucy wants. And of course, Natsu being his husband, he'll do whatever.

There were a lot of games and most were dirty ones, of course, it is a wedding reception.

I can see from Lucy and Natsu's faces, they were so well and free and finally, they are together now. No more breakups, maybe some fights or misunderstandings but they will be matured enough to fix it.

The host kept on pairing me and Gray and clearly, Gray is not liking it. He is either avoiding me or not trying to make a conversation.

We never spoke to each other the whole time.

It did bug me but today is my best friend and brother's special day, I must not be gloomy.

I was laughing and giggling for the whole day because of the fun and games.

The ocean we're wild and strong, the reception's not over yet but I need space to think again.

Do wounds heal itself or do you need somebody to heal it for you?

Do you need to look for that somebody or fate will let him go to you?

I got questions and I think only one place can answer it all.

I approached my brother,

"Natsu, I'll go now, I really need to go somewhere, I am very happy for you," I said, he smiled,

"You're going to him?" he smirked.

I shook my head, honestly, I'm not going to him, maybe I'll go to a place.

"Alright, I ain't stopping you, please take care," he said. I kissed his cheeks.

I went to my car and drove carefully.

The roads have changed and the scenery did too. But I bet that place didn't.

It's like aiming a goal, you may change the plan if plan A doesn't work then go to plan B. But never change the goal. It will stay the same, let it stay the same.

The cherry blossoms were blooming, pink, the grasses were greener. Despite my flowy gown, I managed to climb up the hill I took off my heels since it's a bother.

I almost fell out of balance when I saw a figure feet away from me, I am facing his back.

The adrenaline rush and the rapid heartbeat.

I stared at his masculine figure, no matter what, I'll continuously watch him from afar, from behind, because it will always be me after him.

He shifted his body figure and looked at his bag, he was stunned and so was I.

I felt the world stopped revolving from its axis but ironically the wind blew harder. And I was there gazing at his eyes, I loved and love dearly.

I clenched my fist and placed them in my heart, tears fell continuously from my eyes. He walked towards me, I was expecting a push from him but he pulled me tight for an embrace.

I closed my eyes to savor the moment right before me. He is here and so was I. It felt forever and a lifetime.

I hugged him back and I heard him sob, I also felt him kissing my head a couple of times.

"Why the hell you love me?" he asked. I wasn't expecting that to come out from his mouth after years of being separated.

"I want to know." he whispered.

I pulled him closer to feel him more, because what if I'll wake up and it's just one of dreams again.

But it feels true, everything.

"You love me," he said. I nodded.

"I never stopped."

"Why?" his voice was cracking.

I pulled away and placed my hands on his cheeks, and stared at his ovals deeply.

"I don't even know why..." I said.

HE closed his eyes for a moment then new tears came out from his eyes.

My heart was crushed into pieces seeing him cry.

"Why did you leave?" I asked this time.

He looked down and I'm facing his hair. He was shaking his head.

"Can I k-know? W-why..." I whispered.

He was sobbing hard, he looks so vulnerable.

"I'm v-very... s-sorry." he started, "I left your gloomiest days, I-I should be t-there..." he said.

"I was full of anger when I s-saw that p-photograph." he said sincerely.

"And fuck! Fuck! Fuck! I didn't k-knew... a-about the accident. Fuck!" he fell to the ground and covered his face, he was crying.

My heart broke into pieces.

"I should be t-there for y-you, I should be there h-helping you and t-taking care of you at the hospital. I should be t-there making you happy while the physical wounds were healing... b-but I wasn't." he whispered. "A-and I could not fucking forgive myself, ever... ever... The moment I saw you right before me attempted to take away your life..." I froze, so it was him I heard running when I jumped from the balcony. "I will never ever forgive myself... Ever."

"Before that happened. I was not with you..."

"I wasn't..." he looked up, his face red and his cheeks were wet.

"Now... Let me ask you again, do you still l-love me?" he closed his eyes, "Am I still worthy?"

I couldn't answer, not because I do not love him but I am lost for words.

I sat beside him and cupped his cheeks and placed my lips on top of his. I tilted my head a little to feel him better. He kissed back right after.

"I love you and you are worthy," I said in between our kisses.

I pulled away and kissed his nose. "In bright days or gloomy, I love you. In success or troubles, I love you. In triumph or fear, I love you." I said,

"I can never forgive myself... ever." he said.

"IT's not your fault-"

"It is mine. The moment you did that, I never left your side and I'll be honest, one time I was thinking deeply, around college. I almost did it too... but I saw your phgotograph hanging at my bedroom. It gave me courage to stand up. But I can never forgive myself ever again." he stated.

I shook my head, he also...

"But you are here now," he said. "I always wanted to approach you, in your nineteenth birthday I was there, in your college graduation I was there, in your twenty and twenty first birthday I was there. But every time I'll move my feet closer to you, I'll remember how unworthy I am. How useless I am,that I'll just bring gloom and sadness in your life." he stated, I was in deep shock.

"I think low of myself because that what it really is. You are my goal but I can never have you, because I dont deserve every piece of you." he continued.

"But again, you are here now, no matter what, I'm not letting you go, no matter how unworthy I am, no matter how shitty I am, no matter how the winds blow me away from you, I am hugging you tight." he said.

My head was spinning... He is saying all these...

"This place, Juvia... This is where I'll find you... This is where you will find me... This is where we will find each other..."