Depressed Rants And Poems

Reoccurring stuff and new stuff

Note:I'm into witchcraft and here is rant that there support group is helping me thru

Gender: I know I'm not cis but I have out bursts or 3 genders

Sexuality:I'm gay but idek cause of the gender situation

Witch type/path: I'm brand new and finally looking thru and I've had to make many many changes

Religion: atheist? I believe there is a stronger force of nature over humans that millions anger daily

Life: I feel like cant trust my parents at all. Friends seem fake. Feel happy when alone and will cry when someone understands what I'm going thru. Cherophobia from my parents, mainly mom. Feel uncomfortable around my dad cause of the gender and sexuality situationsCherophobia: fear of happiness

Glossophobia: fear of public speaking

Athazagoraphobia: fear of being forgotten

Agoraphobia: fear of open spaces or crowds

Autophobia(shit memory): being alone or isolatedDid I mention I'm 13. Social and normal anxiety, depression, cherophobia, anxiety/panic attacks, Athazagoraphobia, Glossophobia, and AgoraphobiaI feel like crying but I can't cause I've held back emotions so much to where I can't notI wanna be forgotten but I'm scared what will happen if I doWhenever I seem to be legitimate happy my mom or/and dad yell at me for a reasonWhen I was going to Chicago with my sisters and dad my mom wanted me to come over and that day I could feel was a lvl 8 depressed day so I would cry over anything and she popped zits, not new, she dug into me (emotionally like calling me pizzaface and ugly) and made cry and I had to suppress the tears so fucking hardI had self esteem in the double digits at the beginning of the day tooThat was the first time in like 3 years and it was 3.5 months ago
If I ever got famous

Me to my fans: don't come up to me on the streets or I might faint from panicking