Love Hurts More Than This ( Grell X Reader )

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Y/N's POV
You walked out of Ciel's sight then took a deep breath and hugged yourself, leaning into the wall, hot tears falling down your rosy pink cheeks. You had no idea why you were so emotional at the moment, but you didn't care at all. Looking up you see Grell standing over you with his hand out, and you turned your gaze away. "G....go aw-away..." You managed to say before bursting into even more tears. He stared at you and looked around, not sure what to do so he kneeled down and wrapped his arms around your small figure, holding you close. You didn't stop crying, but instead managed to move your arms up to him and cried into his shoulder, not really caring about anything. "Shhhh...you'll be fine, y/n.." He muttered into your ear and you blushed before moving your head away from his shoulder. Bringing your hand up to your face and wiped the already fell tears away from your cheeks, then you looked down onto his shoulder. "Ah! I am so sorry Grell, I didn't me-" You were cut off when he raised his hand to your cheek then pressed his lips against your own. You were obviously surprised and shocked but you finally calmed down as you kissed him back gently.
The two of you continued kissing before Grell pulled back and looked away, his cheeks almost as red as his hair. You giggled softly then blushed softly as you stared down. "I am so sorry Y/N, I don't know what had gotten into me..." He whispered, his voice almost breaking. You turned your gaze back to him and smiled sweetly. "Don't be sorry, I'm sure if you hadn't kissed me we would be listening to my endless rambling about being sorry for crying on your shoulder." You responded, rubbing his back softly and he sighed a little. "Y/N.... ever since we actually had talked...I've taken quite a fondness to you.." He said and your gaze went wide as you heard him. "C-could you repeat what you said..?" You spoke almost surprised, then looked him in his eyes and he nodded his head. "I said..since we talked, I have taken a fondness to you...." He repeated himself and you looked down, still smiling a little. "Grell...I hav-" You were again cut off by the clearing voice of Sebastian as he looked down at the two of you. "Madam Red is leaving, Grell. You should go with her." He said as he fixed his gloves. Grell sighed again then got up holding his hand down to you and you gladly took it.
After saying your farewells to each other, Grell took off after Madam Red helping her into the carriadge, and a slight wave of frustration and jealousy flushed over you. You were frustrated that you weren't able to tell your feelings to Grell since Sebastian ruined the moment and you were jealous of Madam Red because she was able to live with Grell. You groaned softly in annoyance as all these thoughts went over your head and you walked back up the stairs then headed to your room, to frustrated and jealous to eat. You laid down on your bed and cried softly into the pillows, all your feelings rushed over your mind as you leaned up a bit with the pillow between both your arms. You heard a gentle knock on the door, and you saw Mey~Rin at the door, holding a outfit. "The Young Master told me to bring this to you, there is a party he wants to take you to so you can meet the others like you too." She said softly as she sets the dress on the dresser. "Oh dear, your eyes are all puffy..were you crying?" She asked as she kneeled down to look more directly at your eyes and the puffiness around them. "A little...but it'll clear up by the time I am ready so don't worry Mey~Rin." You responded rubbing your eyes a little with your hands then she nodded her head slowly. "If you say so dear.." She said gently then fixed her glasses and you noticed a crack in them. "Did you break something again?" You giggled softly and Mey~Rin blinked before flushing up in embarrassment. "Ah! Don't tell Sebastian please! Or the Young Master!" She said and you nodded your head. "Tell 'em what?" You spoke sweetly, winking so she knew that you wouldn't tell either one of them. It was a few moments after Mey~Rin left when you got up to get ready and change into the dress that Ciel wanted you to wear. It was a pretty violet ballgown and you groaned softly, you didn't really care for ballgown dresses but you would wear them if you had to.